life

LOUSWIFT
LOUSWIFT Member Posts: 371 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Some weeks ago I was scared that my cancer had returned due to some higher than normal tests. My CT scan and pet scan came back normal. Yesterday, in the blink of an eye my one year old grand daughter felt down my basement stairs. We don't know how she opened the door and my wife was a half-step behind her when it happened. We rushed her to the ER and thank God it appears she is going to be okay. She does have some bruises on her head and some scraches. Of course we have to watch her for the next 48 hrs but the CT-scan was good for her. It was that moment that I realized how unimportant is my life in comparison. I had lost perspective to what is important in my life. My wife blames herself and my daughter and her relationship for now has changed. I don't mean to minimize the struggles we all have been through to save our own lives but in life there are people I love above myself and I don't ever want to forget that again. I must admit I feel ashamed of my fears that my cancer had returned. Life changes...in an instant! Best in life for you all!
Lou

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  • John23
    John23 Member Posts: 2,122 Member
    #2
    Life and that "other thing".


    Re:
    "I must admit I feel ashamed of my fears that my cancer had returned. "

    The big difference between falling down stairs, a car crash,
    or getting run over by a garbage truck... and having cancer,
    is that all those other things "can happen" at any time, but our
    cancer is something that is happening all the time.

    Don't be ashamed that your fears of dying from cancer worries
    you, you have good reason to worry; cancer isn't something
    like "falling down a flight of stairs", where you get a few bruises
    and heal up by next week.. You can be more careful to avoid
    another fall, but you don't know how to "avoid cancer".

    We find we have cancer, and we are made to understand that
    there is no known cure for it. We hope that it will remain quiet
    and allow us to live the balance of our lives, but we all also know
    deep inside us, the true odds.

    With cancer, we live that "fall down the stairs", or that "tragic car
    accident" on a daily basis; it doesn't stop happening, it's like a
    continual slow motion event for us.

    It's like falling at 30,000 feet and waiting for the sudden stop
    at the bottom.

    I try to think about other things; get on with life, but with each day
    comes an awareness that life's short, and getting shorter.

    Responses to other's oversight that we have what is classified as
    a terminal disease, bothers us. We're treated like we just had a
    nasty "fall down some stairs" - our tests come back ok, so we'll be
    fine by next week.. Some people take our life for granted, and
    it hurts us when they do.

    It hurts a whole lot more, and for a whole lot longer, than a
    "fall down some stairs".

    There's no need to feel ashamed about worrying about your own life.



    Better health to you!

    John
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    #3
    To quote a line from a famous song....
    "In a New York minute......"

    It's what you do with the knowledge that life can change forever...that's the key....

    Hugs and good vibes for your grandbaby's complete recovery!

    Hugs, Kathi
  • StacyGleaso
    StacyGleaso Member Posts: 1,233 Member
    #4
    Happy for you
    Well, I think both stories, your cancer scans and your granddaughter's fall, both have a happy ending, and that is fantastic. Yes, life does change in an instant, so cherish every little moment, no matter how large or small the victory.

    Good hearing from you again, Lou!

    Stacy
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #5
    Glad she's OK
    Thankfully kids are resilient. If you or I had taken that fall it could have easily killed us. Not to minimize what happens but stuff happens, blame gravity. I know what you mean about what is important in our lives, I'm thankful that my kids or wife have not had to deal with cancer (other than mine) and I hope it stays that way. I can deal with it.

    I think many of us often overlook that we can just as easily die today from a fall down the stairs, a slip in the shower, a drunken driver, a stray bullet, a heart attack...anything other than only dying from cancer. Try to not let cancer run (or ruin) your life.
    I hope she makes a speedy recovery.
    Stay well
    -phil
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    #6
    Lou,
    I am glad your grand
    Lou,

    I am glad your grand daughter is OK. Those must have been scary moments! Unfortunately with kids that age accidents can happen so quickly + easily. Fortunately kids tend to be resilient.
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #7
    It's rough
    Hey, Lou.

    That was like deja vu for me. Don't know if you read my recent post about my one year old granddaughter falling. She was OUT. I thought she was dying in front of my eyes. Like your wife, I was right there when she fell. I hope your daughter will forgive her mom and understand that accidents happen. I still have flashbacks of the way Caroline looked that day, and I will never forget the fear or how grateful I am that she's okay. I pray that your granddaughter will recover fully, and that everyone will get along.

    *hugs*
    Gail

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