Those Hard Days

grandmafay
grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633 Member
edited March 2014 in Emotional Support #1
It's one of those hard days. It's rainy and gloomy, and it has been 6 months since I lost Doug. I try not to remember the date, but every 20th of the month, it just hits me in the face. I have always made a point of not remembering the dates my friends and loved ones died, but I guess this one is just too close. I even only put the years on his stone. I guess, too, because my birthday is on a 20th, it just sticks. I am participating in our Relay for Life this weekend. Our church has a team. I know some times there will be rough. Doug loved it and we participated together for 5 years. Last year he used a walker to do the survivors lap. It is something positive I can do. Our community really supports it. I don't even care how much of the money goes where it should. I just know that Doug enjoyed the community support, love, and sense of hope he found there. Take care everybody. I will try not to wallow too much, but I think, maybe, we have to do that once in awhile. Two steps forward, one step back. Blessings, Fay

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  • Hondo
    Hondo Member Posts: 6,636 Member
    #2
    Hi grandmafay

    The only good part is knowing that when we say good-by on this earth it is only for a short time for all who believe that Jesus came to give eternal life. We as Christian have a hope and sure faith in what we believe, I don’t understand how someone could live with out Faith. I have faith that my parents and brothers and sisters who have passed on before me will all someday be together again.

    God bless and keep you
  • grandmafay
    grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633 Member
    #3
    Hondo said:

    Hi grandmafay

    The only good part is knowing that when we say good-by on this earth it is only for a short time for all who believe that Jesus came to give eternal life. We as Christian have a hope and sure faith in what we believe, I don’t understand how someone could live with out Faith. I have faith that my parents and brothers and sisters who have passed on before me will all someday be together again.

    God bless and keep you

    Thanks
    Thanks for the support. I made it through the day. I think the weather had a lot to do with the original gloom. We had hail, rain, and even snow. Today I had a massage and lunch with friends. I'm looking forward to the weekend. Mainly, I just need to keep busy. Fay
  • onlyhuman
    onlyhuman Member Posts: 99
    #4
    Hi Fay
    Hi Fay
    How right you are about the weather sometimes affecting our moods. I'm glad you are feeling better. I have been on a roller coaster of emotions. Have bought us a house. I think it will make for a good home for the next 15 years at least. Was ecstatic because I nolonger had the stress of not having somewhere to go once my landlord sold the property I am renting. Then fell in a heap because of the enormity of buying a home without hubby. Even now shopping for furniture and drapes and doing all the things associated with moving is bittersweet. Packing has been hard as well as it has meant I have had to decide which of his things we will keep. Sometimes it all just seems too hard. Then I think we just have to give ourselves some tlc.

    Sangeeta
  • grandmafay
    grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633 Member
    #5
    onlyhuman said:

    Hi Fay
    Hi Fay
    How right you are about the weather sometimes affecting our moods. I'm glad you are feeling better. I have been on a roller coaster of emotions. Have bought us a house. I think it will make for a good home for the next 15 years at least. Was ecstatic because I nolonger had the stress of not having somewhere to go once my landlord sold the property I am renting. Then fell in a heap because of the enormity of buying a home without hubby. Even now shopping for furniture and drapes and doing all the things associated with moving is bittersweet. Packing has been hard as well as it has meant I have had to decide which of his things we will keep. Sometimes it all just seems too hard. Then I think we just have to give ourselves some tlc.

    Sangeeta

    Thanks
    Thanks for the update. I am glad you now have a place to go. I understand how you felt about making the decision to buy the house without your husband's input to a smaller degree. I bought a car and had second thoughts. My son was there which helped a lot, though. Yes, going through stuff is hard. I have a garage full of stuff that I haven't tackled yet. I keep telling myself that it is just stuff, but that doesn't help a whole lot. Again, I am blessed with sons who will help me. Take care of yourself and your family, Fay

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