Hello everyone...sorry I have been scarce

I have been working my tail off...which is odd because I am gaining so much weight. Stress eating, I am sure. That's a total disappointment because I had just lost 50 lbs when Layne was diagnosed. Sigh.

Anyway, we had great scans in January and we are going back on Thurs for more scans. Layne did follow up chemo, it was awfully rough...but we are done with it now and we are in the five year wait. UGHHHH. I never realize how bad doing NOTHING would feel. Very very very odd. I prefer to fight you know?

We have a good friend who just had his surgery today...and I was thinking about all of you...so I thought I'd post. We've just been so busy at work, trying to get the business to bring in enough to pay our bills. I am really concerned with Layne's business being gone. Wow, scary...it's just us and our little teeny business. After cancer though, it's not nearly as scary as it would have been. I know you understand that.

Layne has lost weight since surgery, but has leveled out and looks actually, amazingly well. He looks great in the face, and he is really looking healthy for the first time in probably 10 years. No dark circles, not overweight...just looking good.

He is eating pretty normally now. He sometimes uses his wedge, but not usually. He has noticed his night vision is not as good...weird side effect huh?

We finally got our secondary business moving a bit. Our cancer tees are in---and I am excited that the website will be up hopefully next week. I have great pics if anyone wants to see them of the first six. I am praying that we'll be able to use those to help people like us who have to pay for a large portion of their therapy and to help fund research. Could be just a dream, but I felt I had to try SOMETHING to help. I've met so many GOOD people on this journey. In fact, the journey has been of so much value for the richness it has brought to our lives...new friends, and so many who are my heroes. I know you all know what I mean by that, too.

I have seen we lost a few battles...and I did stop and shed some tears. I am so sorry. It seems a simple thing--a cancer of one little part of the body. There must be a way to arrest it. And we just have to find it. This disease is so cruel and so wrong. I have a lot of questions for the Lord when I see him someday.

Anyway, feel free to email me if you don't see me here. I am just so buried at work, I seldom get to log into the sites anymore. We homeschool too, so work and homeschool have about every minute of my time. One thing that I did lose to cancer was my ability to just be a mom and wife. I loved that role. I miss it terribly.

Love you all.

Betty