can you tell me why I did this???

maglets
maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
so this morning was my ct scan....we skipped the Dec one because surgeon is starting to worry about radiation but i had CEA's in Dec and they were low. So today my best friend's son is the radiologist and I know he's there a hall away from the ct room and I could walk over and say....please read this for me. but I didn't I walked out....and now I'm home and fussing and kicking myself....why????
scared? stupid don't want to knwow? all of those?

mags
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  • abrub
    abrub Member Posts: 2,174 Member
    #2
    I understand
    Feeling funny about taking advantage of the friendship, and not knowing the information, or whether he would have been willing to read it for you.

    I'm lucky - my surgeon has me come directly to his office post-scan, and he reads it while I'm there. Sure cuts down on the scanxiety!

    Good luck! I hope you have a clean read (and soon!)
  • msccolon
    msccolon Member Posts: 1,917 Member
    #3
    it'll be ok!
    The scan will be fine and you will just have missed a few days of celebrating! Did you just forget to walk down the hall or were you afraid it would be an imposition? If it were me, I would have just forgotten and walked out the door! Major memory issues here! Of course, scared and don't want to know would fit me as well! :)
    mary
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #4
    msccolon said:

    it'll be ok!
    The scan will be fine and you will just have missed a few days of celebrating! Did you just forget to walk down the hall or were you afraid it would be an imposition? If it were me, I would have just forgotten and walked out the door! Major memory issues here! Of course, scared and don't want to know would fit me as well! :)
    mary

    forget
    I didn't forget....I couldn't breathe....this is the man who told me about both cancers to the liver....I just couldn't take it...as you say mary....too many issues and memories
  • thready
    thready Member Posts: 474
    #5
    It is o.k. to be scared
    I think a lot of us would have done the same thing as you did. I would have walked out also because I would not have wanted to know. I have scans in about 5 weeks. I an already scared to death, and I really don't want to pass on any bad news to my family. I would rather keep my head in the sand, but then I think-wait what if and most likely I will be NED so why would I not want to know, but if I'm NED then it won't matter if I know or not, but if I know then I could stop worrying-and this keeps going on and on and on.

    All this would be easier if we could turn off the brain.

    Hope all is well
    Jan
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #6
    thready said:

    It is o.k. to be scared
    I think a lot of us would have done the same thing as you did. I would have walked out also because I would not have wanted to know. I have scans in about 5 weeks. I an already scared to death, and I really don't want to pass on any bad news to my family. I would rather keep my head in the sand, but then I think-wait what if and most likely I will be NED so why would I not want to know, but if I'm NED then it won't matter if I know or not, but if I know then I could stop worrying-and this keeps going on and on and on.

    All this would be easier if we could turn off the brain.

    Hope all is well
    Jan

    CLEAR!!!!!!!
    that darling boy, that radiologist just phoned me and I am NED

    NED NEDDIE NEDDY

    mags...sorry a little enthusiasm
  • TxKayaker
    TxKayaker Member Posts: 176
    #7
    maglets said:

    CLEAR!!!!!!!
    that darling boy, that radiologist just phoned me and I am NED

    NED NEDDIE NEDDY

    mags...sorry a little enthusiasm

    Congratulations wishing many
    Congratulations wishing many more clear scans.
  • dianetavegia
    dianetavegia Member Posts: 1,942 Member
    #8
    Oh Mags!!!
    I'm just thrilled!! I'm soooooooo happy (for BOTH of us!)

    Big hugs, my friend!
    Diane
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #9
    dianetavegia said:

    Oh Mags!!!
    I'm just thrilled!! I'm soooooooo happy (for BOTH of us!)

    Big hugs, my friend!
    Diane

    Maggie
    :)

    No worries...
  • Jaylo969
    Jaylo969 Member Posts: 824 Member
    #10
    maglets said:

    CLEAR!!!!!!!
    that darling boy, that radiologist just phoned me and I am NED

    NED NEDDIE NEDDY

    mags...sorry a little enthusiasm

    Wonderful news Mags!
    Mags,

    I am SOOOO happy for you. I'll bet you felt a heavy load lifted from your shoulders, huh?

    Keep the enthusiasm going. Celebrate!!

    -Pat
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #11
    Sundanceh said:

    Maggie
    :)

    No worries...

    cabin
    I have this cottage on a island up north that looks over at Detour Michigan....I spend most winters dreaming of being there....and 3 summers there recovering from surgery and doing chemo. It is very primitive...no running water, no heat no washroomm....one year I was one chemo and the washroom was a sawhorse balanced over a pit in the ground with a tarp on top for rainy days....lordie...lots of trips to the pit

    soooo each year I wonder if I will see the cabin again and yes it seems I will.....

    mags
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    #12
    maglets said:

    cabin
    I have this cottage on a island up north that looks over at Detour Michigan....I spend most winters dreaming of being there....and 3 summers there recovering from surgery and doing chemo. It is very primitive...no running water, no heat no washroomm....one year I was one chemo and the washroom was a sawhorse balanced over a pit in the ground with a tarp on top for rainy days....lordie...lots of trips to the pit

    soooo each year I wonder if I will see the cabin again and yes it seems I will.....

    mags

    Congratulations!
    Mags,

    I am so happy for you + so glad you got the news so quickly! Enjoy + celebrate! I think you will be seeing this cabin for many years!
  • just4Brooks
    just4Brooks Member Posts: 980 Member
    #13
    maglets said:

    CLEAR!!!!!!!
    that darling boy, that radiologist just phoned me and I am NED

    NED NEDDIE NEDDY

    mags...sorry a little enthusiasm

    Time for the Naked NED dance!!
    Great news Mags!! When you get to that cabin you'll have to do the NED dance.


    Life is funny sometimes
    Brooks
  • khl8
    khl8 Member Posts: 807
    #14
    maglets said:

    cabin
    I have this cottage on a island up north that looks over at Detour Michigan....I spend most winters dreaming of being there....and 3 summers there recovering from surgery and doing chemo. It is very primitive...no running water, no heat no washroomm....one year I was one chemo and the washroom was a sawhorse balanced over a pit in the ground with a tarp on top for rainy days....lordie...lots of trips to the pit

    soooo each year I wonder if I will see the cabin again and yes it seems I will.....

    mags

    CONGRATS!!!!!!!!So Happy for
    CONGRATS!!!!!!!!So Happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!
  • grammadebbie
    grammadebbie Member Posts: 464
    #15
    maglets said:

    cabin
    I have this cottage on a island up north that looks over at Detour Michigan....I spend most winters dreaming of being there....and 3 summers there recovering from surgery and doing chemo. It is very primitive...no running water, no heat no washroomm....one year I was one chemo and the washroom was a sawhorse balanced over a pit in the ground with a tarp on top for rainy days....lordie...lots of trips to the pit

    soooo each year I wonder if I will see the cabin again and yes it seems I will.....

    mags

    Whoopie
    Dear Mags,

    What great news. So happy for you. Hope the cabin is ready cause it sounds like you will be on your way soon.

    Blessings and Big Hugs,

    Debbie (gramma)
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #16
    Whew!
    I can understand why you didn't want to go and ask him, but I'm SO glad that you got the call that all is well. Lovely!

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • mom_2_3
    mom_2_3 Member Posts: 953 Member
    #17
    Fantastic News!!
    I am so happy to hear of your clean scan! Now go and enjoy your spring and summer!!!
  • msccolon
    msccolon Member Posts: 1,917 Member
    #18
    maglets said:

    CLEAR!!!!!!!
    that darling boy, that radiologist just phoned me and I am NED

    NED NEDDIE NEDDY

    mags...sorry a little enthusiasm

    YEY!!!!!!!!!
    Naked Happy Dance!
    mary
  • JR
    JR Member Posts: 139 Member
    #19
    Great job.....
    Great job Mags. Don't worry, be happy.

    John
  • CanadaSue
    CanadaSue Member Posts: 339 Member
    #20
    maglets said:

    CLEAR!!!!!!!
    that darling boy, that radiologist just phoned me and I am NED

    NED NEDDIE NEDDY

    mags...sorry a little enthusiasm

    Best news!
    Mags,

    That is the greatest news!

    You dance girl, you deserve it!


    ((((hugs)))

    Sue
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    #21
    glad I kept reading!
    Mags,

    I'm glad I kept scrolling down and reading- so glad he called you and gave you the all clear news- yeehah!!

    Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Lisa

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