Got marked for radiation yesterday
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Diana,
I know exactly how you feel. I just finished my course of radiation, so it wasn't too long ago that I was 'marked'. Big X's and lines in red and dark blue - right up to my collar bone and it showed with the shirt I was wearing. I cried, too.
But, now I know that it was one more step bringing me closer to the end of this road. 33 treatments seemed to go on forever, but suddenly, I am done! Next step!
We all have these moments that take us down when we should be going ahead. Take a deep breath. We are all here for you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, dear girl.
Sue0 -
Thank you,sbmly53 said:Diana,
I know exactly how you feel. I just finished my course of radiation, so it wasn't too long ago that I was 'marked'. Big X's and lines in red and dark blue - right up to my collar bone and it showed with the shirt I was wearing. I cried, too.
But, now I know that it was one more step bringing me closer to the end of this road. 33 treatments seemed to go on forever, but suddenly, I am done! Next step!
We all have these moments that take us down when we should be going ahead. Take a deep breath. We are all here for you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, dear girl.
Sue
Thank you,0 -
So sorry Diane. PrayingApat said:Diana, I'm so sorry for the
Diana, I'm so sorry for the day that you had. Yes, I've experienced similar days. We can almost pretend nothing is going on and feel like we did before diagnosis until we are "marked" in some way as a reminder. I'm praying for you.
Angie
So sorry Diane. Praying that it will all get better for you!0 -
It's OK to Cry
We never know when it is going to hit us, but eventually it does. It finally slaps us in our faces that we have cancer and this is some serious shtuff. I glad your team is good to you and helps you through it. You make sure you come to the boards when you need to unload. We are here for each other.
P0 -
Keeping you in my prayers!aztec45 said:It's OK to Cry
We never know when it is going to hit us, but eventually it does. It finally slaps us in our faces that we have cancer and this is some serious shtuff. I glad your team is good to you and helps you through it. You make sure you come to the boards when you need to unload. We are here for each other.
P
Keeping you in my prayers! I am so sorry.
Hugs, Debby0 -
Hi Diana,jbug said:Diana
This is such a great and safe place to share; we've all walked down that path and know...it's ok to cry and vent and hate that you have to go thru treatments of any kind. Will be praying for you! Blessings...
Julie
Oooh, I know just how you feel about being clausterphobic. I will never have an MRI unless they give me IV Sedation! I did have a CT when I was hospitalized but it was the abdomen, the machine was an open donut and it didn't take but a couple of minutes and I was pretty sick. I've only had chemo and no rads but I have thought about if I ever do that I would have to take a ton of Ativan to get thru it. Which brings me to my suggestion, before I have any procedure (including a port flush) I take an Ativan cause I'm relaxed. Maybe something like that would help get you thru.
Your center sounds wonderful and that will be a help. If this is the first time you cried, you needed it. It hits me every once in a while that I'm a cancer survivor and although I'm thru with treatment, I'll never be thru of "it". I've cried 100 times and more. Only a couple of times a real boo-hoo but lots of tears. It's a great release and nothing to be ashamed of. We don't get extra bonus points for not showing any emotion so when the mood strickes, let it go and come on this board and we'll all give you cyber hugs.
Keep everyone posted with your progress...
Hugs, Judy :-)0 -
Tatoos
Five months out of radiation, and on a silly internet questionnaire being circulated among family and friends, yesterday I answered that I have 4 tatoos. Knowing my feelings about his one, discreet tatoo, my son wrote back saying, "Mom, you do NOT have 4 tatoos." I laughed, realizing I had finally claimed them for my own as a sign of my recovery. And some day you will, too! Your feelings are normal. Good luck!0 -
Tatoos
Five months out of radiation, and on a silly internet questionnaire being circulated among family and friends, yesterday I answered that I have 4 tatoos. Knowing my feelings about his one, discreet tatoo, my son wrote back saying, "Mom, you do NOT have 4 tatoos." I laughed, realizing I had finally claimed them for my own as a sign of my recovery. And some day you will, too! Your feelings are normal. Good luck!0 -
We all get hit by the fear,sbmly53 said:Diana,
I know exactly how you feel. I just finished my course of radiation, so it wasn't too long ago that I was 'marked'. Big X's and lines in red and dark blue - right up to my collar bone and it showed with the shirt I was wearing. I cried, too.
But, now I know that it was one more step bringing me closer to the end of this road. 33 treatments seemed to go on forever, but suddenly, I am done! Next step!
We all have these moments that take us down when we should be going ahead. Take a deep breath. We are all here for you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, dear girl.
Sue
We all get hit by the fear, the treatment, or, just plain the fact that we have breast cancer and the tears start flowing. It is very normal, and, happens to all of us. Keep your chin up and good luck to you!0 -
I cry when confronted withdlannon82 said:Tatoos
Five months out of radiation, and on a silly internet questionnaire being circulated among family and friends, yesterday I answered that I have 4 tatoos. Knowing my feelings about his one, discreet tatoo, my son wrote back saying, "Mom, you do NOT have 4 tatoos." I laughed, realizing I had finally claimed them for my own as a sign of my recovery. And some day you will, too! Your feelings are normal. Good luck!
I cry when confronted with this as well. i am a little embarrassed, but OH well. its scary. i am having my planning on the 18th then start rads too. I am hoping i can use my check off list attitude. I hadradiation inthe past so its not ashard as the chemo just dreading the drive, and how much my skin will react. Oh well one daya t a time.0 -
The thought of a TATTOO was
The thought of a TATTOO was terrorfying to me. I envisioned big Xs or 'crosses' or who knows what! Much worse than anything else.
The first day when they mapped I only got one 'tattoo'/dot. Thought they had quite a bit of drawing all over there were only a few 'intersections' that they wanted preserved so they put tegaderm over those and said go ahead and wash the rest off - just try to not wash them off as it would take a bit more time to redraw them before the other tattoos were done.
In the end - the "tattoo" are only small dots no bigger than a freckle and no one will ever see them other than me, Hubby, and my Dr's/nurses.0 -
I go on Thursday for my tattooRague said:The thought of a TATTOO was
The thought of a TATTOO was terrorfying to me. I envisioned big Xs or 'crosses' or who knows what! Much worse than anything else.
The first day when they mapped I only got one 'tattoo'/dot. Thought they had quite a bit of drawing all over there were only a few 'intersections' that they wanted preserved so they put tegaderm over those and said go ahead and wash the rest off - just try to not wash them off as it would take a bit more time to redraw them before the other tattoos were done.
In the end - the "tattoo" are only small dots no bigger than a freckle and no one will ever see them other than me, Hubby, and my Dr's/nurses.
I guess we're all "marked women"... Not looking forward to it, but at least you'll know you did everything you could to beat this thing. From what the radiologist told me I feel it's the right thing to do. and it doesn't hurt! much...0
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