LisaQ?

Concerned
Hi Brittany

How are you doing. I think about you, becaue I look at my daughters, and know they will lose me sooner than they had thought. You are such a loving strong person.

Hugs!!!!!!!
Dinora

HI Brittany.....how are you??? Thanks for asking about me...
HI Brittany, I've been lurking....but not knowing what to say sometimes. Mom had to stop the cisplatin because it had done so much damage to her kidneys. They gave her a final chemo last week taxol/carbo and she did ok. She's 92 pounds and we have our big meeting on the 25th to see where she is...doc told me in December she is not expecting remission as the lowest her CA-125 has ever gotten is 125. How ironic isn't it? But I think about Bonnie and believe we can do some management. But for now, she is getting a chemo break because her body just can't handle anymore. I put in a new picture so people can see her what the disease has done to her.

But this whole 8 months has truly changed me and I am thinking more about my own mortality and what I want to do with the rest of my life and you know, i just don't have a lot of tolerance for things right now. I want to scream at people sometimes and say, "what is wrong with you, get your priorities in order..". I don't think that's too productive so I am trying to come up with another approach.

How are you? Did you get through the move? You know you can always e-mail me at jack@augsburg.edu...if you ever need/want...I truly appreciate you asking about me....and I am thinking of doing a road trip this summer and meeting all these wonderful women and writing a story for the Cancer magazine.....wanna visit?

BrittanyC said:

Ah~~~~!!
Sorry for the late
Ah~~~~!!

Sorry for the late reply. I've been busy with work and trying to clean up my room.

Lisa, I am sorry to hear about your mom. Hopefully her having a break from the chemo will help rejuvinate her for the next session and she will be one tough lady

I totally agree and understand with the whole mortality of ourselves. During the entire course of my mother's battle, I ate out of stress. I didn't begin to realize it until the last 2 months of her life. I read a book about stress, and it said weight gain in the mid section, and that is where my fat is being stored at the moment. So I'm trying to eat better and I've stopped eating so late at night.

Tolerance.. ha. I feel like screaming at some people who think they are all that. Life is too darn short.

I'll be sending you an email shortly

I'm pudging up too
Brit,

Don't worry, the weight will come off and you'll be sooo buff you can't stand it.

My fine haircutter lost her mother to cancer several years ago, and gained 20 pounds that year. I've gained close to 10. Our theory is that stress makes your body more efficient with calories, so you gain weight when you're under the ultimate stress, losing your mom. That's our theory anyway.

Nine years ago I lost 30 pounds and kept it off until now. I must go back to using chocolate medicinally rather than as an actual food.

Lisa13Q said:

I'm Baaaackkkk
Chocolate isn't a regular food? Damn....and all these years I thought that's what lunch was called....

I'M WITH YOU, LISA!
It may not be called 'regular food' just yet, but it has a gazillion antioxidants in it! That's good enough reason for me to eat it!

(((HUGS)))!!
Monika

Hissy_Fitz said:

Chocolate for lunch......
I don't know about you, but if I want chocolate for lunch, that's what I'm having. I was in the Cancer Survivors chat room and the conversation was food. Someone said meat that is burned/too well done is bad for you. I have Cancer......how dangerous can a well-done steak be?

My doctor said to eat whatever I feel like eating, whenever I feel hungry. So that's what I do. The steroids they give me with chemo make me ravenously hungry, but I can only eat small amounts at a time. I have had to get over the guilt of throwing away food. If 1/3 of a hamburger is what I can manage, so be it.

I buy out-of-season fruit (strawberries in December...yum), even though it is outrageously expensive. I got over that, too.

There's a chocolate brunch at a hotel in Hershey, PA. Maybe they would give us a group rate.

ou make me laugh!
Hissy_Fitz,
Your reply made me laugh out loud! I was wondering why I crave Big Macs, French Fries and Dr. Pepper right after chemo....the steriods! Sometimes it is KFC extra crispy! The last 17 weeks on chemo I have eaten so much junk food, ice cream (Ben and Jerrys). I also eat healthy but the cravings are incredible. Sign me up for the Hershey trip!
MK