just accidentally clicked on the childhood cancer board

christinecarl
christinecarl Member Posts: 543 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
There are no words to describe the sadness there. I feel so lucky and blessed to have made it to 41.

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  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #2
    I understand
    I know what you mean. I would rather have cancer myself any day than have a child have to go through it.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • thready
    thready Member Posts: 474
    #3
    The younger ones
    Last Tuesday I went in for lab work, there was a young (mid 20's) there. She was very thin, she was very jaundiced, she is very sick. I thought, what am I doing here. I have lived twice as long has her. I was so sad and wondered why I even complained at all about my issues.
    Jan
  • coloCan
    coloCan Member Posts: 1,944 Member
    #4
    thready said:

    The younger ones
    Last Tuesday I went in for lab work, there was a young (mid 20's) there. She was very thin, she was very jaundiced, she is very sick. I thought, what am I doing here. I have lived twice as long has her. I was so sad and wondered why I even complained at all about my issues.
    Jan

    Childhood Cancers
    At times I;ve accidentally hit the childrend;s rather than the colorectal board and I can;t read their posts without crying. How do you explain to a child she has cancr? It shows how cancer doesn;t care who you are when it strikes. What truly amazes me is the pediatric area by me is next to the chemo room and to watch/hear some of these kids run down the hall with their toys, laughing and playing on their way to treatment makes me feel like a **** when I complain about how oxy;s killing me. At least I made it to 59!!!!Its heartwrenching to watch these kids....Steve
  • dianetavegia
    dianetavegia Member Posts: 1,942 Member
    #5
    Overwhelming.... I cannot
    Overwhelming.... I cannot look at such sad things. I've not watched one minute of what's going on in Haiti. Two girls from our church, and their uncle, are from Haiti. They came here a few years ago, graduated high school and are in their 1st and 2nd year of college. This Christmas, they returned for a holiday visit and the older girl left her infant with her parents so she could focus on school. They cannot locate any of the family, located in the worst hit area.

    It's too heartbreaking.
  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #6
    It's So Sad
    Every month we receive a donation card with a little child and his/her story from St. Judes Hospital. The stories are just heart wrenching. This is one charity that we proudly give to every month. Just so hard to look at them.

    Kim
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #7
    I've Done That Too
    Know a guy had work who's followed my Cancer. He is dating a woman with a small girl 4 years old - she had Leukemia. I always told him I don't want to talk about me, I'm a man and can handle it...I just want to talk about your little girl and how she's doing.

    And when she felt well, she played and acted like a kid, he said. When she felt bad, she took it like a little brave warrior, and then as soon as she felt better, she went back to being a kid. She referred to her port as her "Button."

    She recently went into remission and had her port removed - it was wonderful to share that with my friend...he kept up with me and I kept up with her. I thought if this little girl can take it, then I certainly can.

    Children just do not deserve to have to go through this Period. But it does show how Cancer does not discriminate, it strikes the young, the active, and the elderly with the same tenacity - an equal opportunity destroyer, as I like to say.

    The great thing about this little girl, is that her spirit is so strong, and she is so young, that her memories of this will not be as strong. And that's a blessing.

    And Diane, when you see so much tragedy around us, it can be overwhelming. What makes it that is you have the mentality to know what it will take for them to get back to where they were today, before it happened.

    I just count my blessings every day, try not to moan too much, keep my feet moving, and just try to get through this. Our world is a vapor and can turn one way or the other in the blink of an eye.

    I've read the Childhoold board too - and it truly is heartbreaking. All of us just want to wave our wands and make bad things disappear.

    -Craig
  • Shayenne
    Shayenne Member Posts: 2,342
    #8
    Sundanceh said:

    I've Done That Too
    Know a guy had work who's followed my Cancer. He is dating a woman with a small girl 4 years old - she had Leukemia. I always told him I don't want to talk about me, I'm a man and can handle it...I just want to talk about your little girl and how she's doing.

    And when she felt well, she played and acted like a kid, he said. When she felt bad, she took it like a little brave warrior, and then as soon as she felt better, she went back to being a kid. She referred to her port as her "Button."

    She recently went into remission and had her port removed - it was wonderful to share that with my friend...he kept up with me and I kept up with her. I thought if this little girl can take it, then I certainly can.

    Children just do not deserve to have to go through this Period. But it does show how Cancer does not discriminate, it strikes the young, the active, and the elderly with the same tenacity - an equal opportunity destroyer, as I like to say.

    The great thing about this little girl, is that her spirit is so strong, and she is so young, that her memories of this will not be as strong. And that's a blessing.

    And Diane, when you see so much tragedy around us, it can be overwhelming. What makes it that is you have the mentality to know what it will take for them to get back to where they were today, before it happened.

    I just count my blessings every day, try not to moan too much, keep my feet moving, and just try to get through this. Our world is a vapor and can turn one way or the other in the blink of an eye.

    I've read the Childhoold board too - and it truly is heartbreaking. All of us just want to wave our wands and make bad things disappear.

    -Craig

    This Is
    Exactly why I am the way I am...I don't pity myself, I don't cry about myself, and try to help others get through what they're going through....I know there are people out there who have it wayyyyyyy worse then I do! Much more horrible diseases out there, the tragedy at Haiti, which could have easily happened right here! Sept 11, the wars in the world, the starving people in the African parts, Ethiopia, small children who have lost their parents to AIDS, and have to take care of themselves and their siblings, who are also infected.. and of course those poor children going through chemo and radiation, just like us, who haven't even lived their lives yet.

    My focus when I start dwelling or getting scared at my condition goes right to those who have it worse then me, it snaps me right out of that, and my heart goes out to those parents who have to watch their children go through all that, I could never do it, you'd have to put me in a padded cell if anything happened to my kids...I am lucky to have this, and not my kids, I do read the childhood cancer boards, and even the liver cancer board, and more, it's very depressing, and brings tears to my eyes.

    In a way I find myself lucky that we are able to have treatments, when others cannot, and I pray for the children and people around the world everyday, and wish there just wasn't such a thing as diseases and poverty, it's just sad!

    Hugsss!
    ~Donna
  • karguy
    karguy Member Posts: 1,020 Member
    #9
    I feel
    I feel sorry that those kids have to go thru that.Last year my sister-in-law had her nefew die of brain cancer,he was 10 yrs. old.When I was at childrens hospital I saw alot of kids walking around with their iv's.A child with cancer sat at the next table and talked to us and it broke my heart.Now when I feel bad I think of them,then I don't feel bad anymore.
  • daydreamer110761
    daydreamer110761 Member Posts: 487 Member
    #10
    karguy said:

    I feel
    I feel sorry that those kids have to go thru that.Last year my sister-in-law had her nefew die of brain cancer,he was 10 yrs. old.When I was at childrens hospital I saw alot of kids walking around with their iv's.A child with cancer sat at the next table and talked to us and it broke my heart.Now when I feel bad I think of them,then I don't feel bad anymore.

    One of my friends
    son had cancer from the age of 5. My daughter used to babysit for him and his sister. He spent more of his life in the hospital than out of it, but when he was out, he was definatly a kid! I remember having to explain to my son that Nick was too tired to be out running around some days, and to just sit and watch tv with him, he enjoyed that. My kids would also go spend time with him at the hospital and would play with the other kids as well. He had been through so many different treatments. Each time he went into remission he would get his hopes up that the port would finally come out, and each time just before it was due, he would come down with a fever and come out of remission. just about 2 years ago he finally had a bone marrow transplant. Unfortunately, he got an infection, and never made it out of the hospital again. He passed away August 2008, he was 12. I don't think Holly will ever get over loosing her son, it's hard to have your children go before you, that's not the way it is supposed to be. That also made it quite hard for me to tell my kids about me, only 3 months after Nicholas passed. That was all they knew about cancer, was that their friend died.
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #11
    I know...
    It always breaks me up to see kids go through this. I'm glad my kids have been healthy so far and that I have cancer and not them.
  • christinecarl
    christinecarl Member Posts: 543 Member
    #12
    PhillieG said:

    I know...
    It always breaks me up to see kids go through this. I'm glad my kids have been healthy so far and that I have cancer and not them.

    yes
    the only good thing of my mom passing away from colon cancer before me was that she never knew I would get it too. makes me glad I never had kids incase I would pass it on to them too
  • victory10
    victory10 Member Posts: 75
    #13
    Shayenne said:

    This Is
    Exactly why I am the way I am...I don't pity myself, I don't cry about myself, and try to help others get through what they're going through....I know there are people out there who have it wayyyyyyy worse then I do! Much more horrible diseases out there, the tragedy at Haiti, which could have easily happened right here! Sept 11, the wars in the world, the starving people in the African parts, Ethiopia, small children who have lost their parents to AIDS, and have to take care of themselves and their siblings, who are also infected.. and of course those poor children going through chemo and radiation, just like us, who haven't even lived their lives yet.

    My focus when I start dwelling or getting scared at my condition goes right to those who have it worse then me, it snaps me right out of that, and my heart goes out to those parents who have to watch their children go through all that, I could never do it, you'd have to put me in a padded cell if anything happened to my kids...I am lucky to have this, and not my kids, I do read the childhood cancer boards, and even the liver cancer board, and more, it's very depressing, and brings tears to my eyes.

    In a way I find myself lucky that we are able to have treatments, when others cannot, and I pray for the children and people around the world everyday, and wish there just wasn't such a thing as diseases and poverty, it's just sad!

    Hugsss!
    ~Donna

    The little heroes
    I am so moved by the strength of these little children. Whenever I see stories on TV like Extreme Makeover Home Edition and the girl who had cancer and wanted ABC to repaint the hospital I felt so humbled. If those children can go through this, why can't we. (I want to travel to St. Judes when my treatments are over to just be in the presence of these children)

    But Shayenne, your words expressed exactly how I feel. I was soooo thankful when I looked at the insurance statement yesterday that said to date I have utilized 45,000 dollars plus and I still have 4 1/2 months to go...sooooo very thankful that I even want to be an advocate to get our congress and senate to do what they need to do to come together and make health care available to every citizen...

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