Lung exray.........

after 35 years of smoking I decided after talking with my Onc that I needed to check my lungs and he informed me that since last Thursday was very snowy that the exray lab wouldn't be very crowded. It wasn't so I walked in had my non invasive scan done and was gone, all in less than 10 minutes. I didn't call for the results, I waited like I should, and tried to feel all the emotions that people feel in situations like this...Again, it was awful, the ups and downs and what ifs and naw its not surely gonna be bad.. The longer I waited the more worked up I got, but insisted upon myself that I not call or not worry about the result, good or bad.
I have talked with a lot of people in here about how not to feel lost or petrified about getting results from scans or tests, only to find myself in that seat again, and again finding myself thinking about the pros and cons of the results and how I would handle the outcome if it in fact was bad.
What I guess Im saying is that I do not take anything I say in here (unless joking) lightly, and telling someone not to worry is my way of trying to let there be calm before the storm. Never think that we take results lightly or outcome of scans. We just try to put our friends at ease with what ever it is.
My experience through this chest exray re affirmed to me the total mass confusion that it places the whole family in if it comes out bad, it also allows me to know again how to try and pass a calming note or jesture to someone waiting for the same results as I waited for for 5 days. I will never ever make light of something so life changing to anyone or joke about it. Its only done in fun to remove the patient from their thinking for a little bit.
I am elated with the outcome of my exray. It showed nothing. I am also sad because before now I took what was life changing to people and sometimes made jokes about it, when there wasn't actually anything funny. I just try to keep everyone laughing and in a good mood no matter the circumstances, no matter if you feel bad or not cause I am your buddy, and buddies tell it like it is....I wouldn't have it any other way...so if I upset someone or my quip doesn't exactly need to be where its placed, understand that my intentions are good, its just sometimes the outcome is bad...I don't get paid for being a comedian, so you'll just have to take what you get......Now with that said and behind me.......


I AM A HAPPY MAN..........clear...clear....clear....and remember, I don't believe in luck

Dancin' Naked Again and it is a butt ugly sight.....LOL...........Love and Hope, Buzz