Deanna

shortmarge
shortmarge Member Posts: 291
edited March 2014 in Uterine/Endometrial Cancer #1
Be thinking about you tomorrow and sending up a special prayer that your CT scan is clear!!!

MIND, BODY AND SOUL!

Hugs, Marge

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  • lindaprocopio
    lindaprocopio Member Posts: 1,980 Member
    #2
    Me, too! Holding you close in my heart!
    I know you'll be clear. Post as soon as you get the good news!

    I get my port tomorrow.
  • california_artist
    california_artist Member Posts: 816 Member
    #3
    lindaprocopio said:

    Me, too! Holding you close in my heart!
    I know you'll be clear. Post as soon as you get the good news!

    I get my port tomorrow.

    Please, I'm beggin'
    No bad news..

    Be well!

    Claudia
  • deanna14
    deanna14 Member Posts: 732
    #4
    california_artist said:

    Please, I'm beggin'
    No bad news..

    Be well!

    Claudia

    I'm with Claudia.... beggin! LOL
    Please please no more bad new.... give us a chance to catch our breaths!
    Thanks girls for always being so supportive. I am afraid to have good vibes, because the first one out of chemo I did and it was bad... I am all jumbled up when I get there... sometimes I am afraid I will pass out and fall off the table. I try to be graceful and breathe and nod my head.... but nornally my legs and arms are cold and numb and I feel I need to vomit at any moment! Wish I had something medicinal to take for anxiety tomorrow. I have never been a kook like that until the cancer, but I can get sick just thinking about tomorrow. AAAghhhhhh!!!! Makes me want to run far far away and never go to the doctor again. I wanna scream.... all the irrational stuff like "it's not fair, why me, I'm too young, I just got married, I wanna live....Then I think "we all want that, so what makes me think I am so special? I think I am crazy...a bubble off level. These follow ups make me irrational. I want to live, I want to live a very long time with my husband.......arghhhh!!! Oh, and I need to ask him why he has not done any pap smears since surgery? Should I ask about the EGFR and HK6? I don't know much about that, but I am paying him to explain and consider these things, right?
    Thanks for letting me get that out. I do so appreciate all of my friends here, whom I know truly understand my craziness while waiting for these results. I will post as soon as I get home. Thanks again for caring and being here.
    We are sooooo going to kick cancer's butt!!!
  • deanna14
    deanna14 Member Posts: 732
    #5
    lindaprocopio said:

    Me, too! Holding you close in my heart!
    I know you'll be clear. Post as soon as you get the good news!

    I get my port tomorrow.

    Port is GOOD!!
    I hope yours works perfectly and you will love it. They can draw blood from it, give you chemo and even use it for the contrast during CT. Remember to make sure it can be used for CT, some of them can't. Mine was a "Power Port" and I can't recall which co. made it,but there are several that are marketed for their ability to be used during CT scans.
    Good Luck. Post when you can. Love and hugs and happy thoughts. Hope you are feeling okay post chemo.
  • culka
    culka Member Posts: 149 Member
    #6
    deanna14 said:

    I'm with Claudia.... beggin! LOL
    Please please no more bad new.... give us a chance to catch our breaths!
    Thanks girls for always being so supportive. I am afraid to have good vibes, because the first one out of chemo I did and it was bad... I am all jumbled up when I get there... sometimes I am afraid I will pass out and fall off the table. I try to be graceful and breathe and nod my head.... but nornally my legs and arms are cold and numb and I feel I need to vomit at any moment! Wish I had something medicinal to take for anxiety tomorrow. I have never been a kook like that until the cancer, but I can get sick just thinking about tomorrow. AAAghhhhhh!!!! Makes me want to run far far away and never go to the doctor again. I wanna scream.... all the irrational stuff like "it's not fair, why me, I'm too young, I just got married, I wanna live....Then I think "we all want that, so what makes me think I am so special? I think I am crazy...a bubble off level. These follow ups make me irrational. I want to live, I want to live a very long time with my husband.......arghhhh!!! Oh, and I need to ask him why he has not done any pap smears since surgery? Should I ask about the EGFR and HK6? I don't know much about that, but I am paying him to explain and consider these things, right?
    Thanks for letting me get that out. I do so appreciate all of my friends here, whom I know truly understand my craziness while waiting for these results. I will post as soon as I get home. Thanks again for caring and being here.
    We are sooooo going to kick cancer's butt!!!

    You know cancer is actually
    You know cancer is actually blessing for us. Think tsunami, those people didn`t have time to say good bye, or I love you. Maybe we don`t have eternity, but enough time to enjoy every single day. Since I was diagnosed even rainy day is nice.

    Good luck tomorrow, you are fine like Linda. Her ca125 went down before chemo (because it is inflammation!!!!!)
  • Ro10
    Ro10 Member Posts: 1,561 Member
    #7
    deanna14 said:

    Port is GOOD!!
    I hope yours works perfectly and you will love it. They can draw blood from it, give you chemo and even use it for the contrast during CT. Remember to make sure it can be used for CT, some of them can't. Mine was a "Power Port" and I can't recall which co. made it,but there are several that are marketed for their ability to be used during CT scans.
    Good Luck. Post when you can. Love and hugs and happy thoughts. Hope you are feeling okay post chemo.

    Deanna Hope you have a good day Friday
    Deanna you remain in my prayers. I hope you get through the CAT scan without too much anxiety. Hope they get the vein on the first try. Hope you get good results, too. In peace and caring.
  • deanna14
    deanna14 Member Posts: 732
    #8
    Ro10 said:

    Deanna Hope you have a good day Friday
    Deanna you remain in my prayers. I hope you get through the CAT scan without too much anxiety. Hope they get the vein on the first try. Hope you get good results, too. In peace and caring.

    Thanks Ro...
    I have an appt. with my gyn/onc at 10:45 to get the results of last weeks CT. As you can see, I am still awake....The waiting is the hardest part. Praying of course for another clean CT.
    Love and hugs!
  • california_artist
    california_artist Member Posts: 816 Member
    #9
    deanna14 said:

    I'm with Claudia.... beggin! LOL
    Please please no more bad new.... give us a chance to catch our breaths!
    Thanks girls for always being so supportive. I am afraid to have good vibes, because the first one out of chemo I did and it was bad... I am all jumbled up when I get there... sometimes I am afraid I will pass out and fall off the table. I try to be graceful and breathe and nod my head.... but nornally my legs and arms are cold and numb and I feel I need to vomit at any moment! Wish I had something medicinal to take for anxiety tomorrow. I have never been a kook like that until the cancer, but I can get sick just thinking about tomorrow. AAAghhhhhh!!!! Makes me want to run far far away and never go to the doctor again. I wanna scream.... all the irrational stuff like "it's not fair, why me, I'm too young, I just got married, I wanna live....Then I think "we all want that, so what makes me think I am so special? I think I am crazy...a bubble off level. These follow ups make me irrational. I want to live, I want to live a very long time with my husband.......arghhhh!!! Oh, and I need to ask him why he has not done any pap smears since surgery? Should I ask about the EGFR and HK6? I don't know much about that, but I am paying him to explain and consider these things, right?
    Thanks for letting me get that out. I do so appreciate all of my friends here, whom I know truly understand my craziness while waiting for these results. I will post as soon as I get home. Thanks again for caring and being here.
    We are sooooo going to kick cancer's butt!!!

    deanna
    You're welcome. You can pay the receptionist $120. See you next week. hehehehehh
  • Outlaw_Josie
    Outlaw_Josie Member Posts: 41
    #10
    deanna14 said:

    Thanks Ro...
    I have an appt. with my gyn/onc at 10:45 to get the results of last weeks CT. As you can see, I am still awake....The waiting is the hardest part. Praying of course for another clean CT.
    Love and hugs!

    The waiting is the hardest part
    That is a very true comment. My very first gyn visit 5 years ago with the group that found the cancer this time didn't seem to get that and, despite phone calls to the office, made me wait till they sent the darn post card almost 3 weeks later.

    One the other hand, gyn oncologist does seem to get it and called as soon as the results came in.

    I hear ya about the nerves, just going to his office jacks up my blood pressure.

    Hoping for a clear CT for you as well.
  • kkstef
    kkstef Member Posts: 688 Member
    #11
    deanna14 said:

    I'm with Claudia.... beggin! LOL
    Please please no more bad new.... give us a chance to catch our breaths!
    Thanks girls for always being so supportive. I am afraid to have good vibes, because the first one out of chemo I did and it was bad... I am all jumbled up when I get there... sometimes I am afraid I will pass out and fall off the table. I try to be graceful and breathe and nod my head.... but nornally my legs and arms are cold and numb and I feel I need to vomit at any moment! Wish I had something medicinal to take for anxiety tomorrow. I have never been a kook like that until the cancer, but I can get sick just thinking about tomorrow. AAAghhhhhh!!!! Makes me want to run far far away and never go to the doctor again. I wanna scream.... all the irrational stuff like "it's not fair, why me, I'm too young, I just got married, I wanna live....Then I think "we all want that, so what makes me think I am so special? I think I am crazy...a bubble off level. These follow ups make me irrational. I want to live, I want to live a very long time with my husband.......arghhhh!!! Oh, and I need to ask him why he has not done any pap smears since surgery? Should I ask about the EGFR and HK6? I don't know much about that, but I am paying him to explain and consider these things, right?
    Thanks for letting me get that out. I do so appreciate all of my friends here, whom I know truly understand my craziness while waiting for these results. I will post as soon as I get home. Thanks again for caring and being here.
    We are sooooo going to kick cancer's butt!!!

    Thinking of you !
    Deanna.....by the time you read this you will be back home with good news, I am certain! Also, since you didn't sleep very well, maybe you will even get in a little nap and wake up feeling refreshed and ready to celebrate!!!

    Karen
  • Unknown
    Unknown
    #12
    Outlaw_Josie said:

    The waiting is the hardest part
    That is a very true comment. My very first gyn visit 5 years ago with the group that found the cancer this time didn't seem to get that and, despite phone calls to the office, made me wait till they sent the darn post card almost 3 weeks later.

    One the other hand, gyn oncologist does seem to get it and called as soon as the results came in.

    I hear ya about the nerves, just going to his office jacks up my blood pressure.

    Hoping for a clear CT for you as well.

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  • daisy366
    daisy366 Member Posts: 1,458 Member
    #13
    unknown said:

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    Deanna,
    Your musings sound so much like mine. So it is good to get it out and share. Enjoy yourself this weekend with your hubbie.

    Blessings to you. Mary Ann

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