Almost my 2 yr. Mark

Well i am new to this whole process however i was diagnosed with peritoneal mesothelioma in nov. 07. At the age of 24 i had to have a radical hysterectomy and went thru the hyperperitoneal chemo and then chemo afterwards. I made the mistake of sending the social workers away saying that i was ok. Now 2 years later i still dont feel like who i was before this shattered my world. I still to this day dont know how to deal with the fact that i cant have a child now and for a reason that is unexplained. I have a life partner that has helped me thru this but i know that even she can tell this has changed me and i am no longer the fun loving girl i once was. I know that i know now that i should have taken the help that was offered. dont get me wrong i am not suicidal or anything i am just in need of support from those who may have a similar situation. Maybe just someone to help me cope with what was taken from me. for those who dont know mesothelioma is caused by asbestos and normally takes 30-50 years to develop. I however was only 24 which is really really rare. I came to this board to hopefully find some support and talk with fellow suvivors to help me in my journey.