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dixchi
dixchi Member Posts: 431
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
I'm in the middle of my second set of scans since chemo ended in December.
Just had a biphasic CT scan on Thursday and picked up a copy of the report.
There is no evidence of recurrence in my liver or lungs altho they did note
a nodule there. Happy news! But then they drop me out of the plane with no
parachute with the news that there is "a tiny low density lesion noted in the inferior pole
of the left kidney" and "the left ovary is mildly enlarged" and are suggesting
a pelvic ultrasound to further investigate. Don't mention further tests for the
kidney. What??? Interesting that the liver resection removed the left lobe. Everything
is on the left side. My last scans were done
in April and it was all good news. Tomorrow I get a PET/CT scan and then see
the oncologist on Thursday. It's a strange feeling.....I feel good, I feel scared...
at the same time. Could be anything.....definitely feels like a roller coaster
ride to me. Appreciate any positive vibes you can send my way.

Barbara

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  • kersha
    kersha Member Posts: 63
    roller coaster ride
    Hi Barbara I know how you feel my husband had his right lobe removed and one segment of the left lobe. He had finished chemo in May and he had a scan done last week which shows a node in the left lobe of his lung and something in his liver but not sure what it is. One doctor says it is a cyst another says it does not have the density of a cyst the node in the lung is too small to biopsy also his prostate is mildly enlarged so we are just waiting to do further scans. I hope for both you and my husband it is not a recurrence.

    Fay
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    Sending good vibes
    and lots of prayers your way. Lets try not to worry until there is something to worry about. I know I know, easier said then done. Take one day at a time and breathe. I feel the same way got my scans coming up in a week or so and I am scared too. Since my cancer came back so fast last time, I wonder what will the scans say this time. But all I can do is breathe, pray and hope for the best. Whatever it maybe or not, you will handle it and be strong, your a very strong person and will get through this.

    Good luck and keep us posted.
    Beth
  • Hatshepsut
    Hatshepsut Member Posts: 336 Member
    dorookie said:

    Sending good vibes
    and lots of prayers your way. Lets try not to worry until there is something to worry about. I know I know, easier said then done. Take one day at a time and breathe. I feel the same way got my scans coming up in a week or so and I am scared too. Since my cancer came back so fast last time, I wonder what will the scans say this time. But all I can do is breathe, pray and hope for the best. Whatever it maybe or not, you will handle it and be strong, your a very strong person and will get through this.

    Good luck and keep us posted.
    Beth

    Good wishes to you

    I'm so sorry you are facing the anxiety that comes with ambiguous scan findings.

    I sincerely hope that all goes well for you and that your doctor gives you an explanation that gives you relief and comfort.

    Strong good wishes are coming your way from sunny California!

    Hatshepsut
  • Fight for my love
    Fight for my love Member Posts: 1,522 Member
    kersha said:

    roller coaster ride
    Hi Barbara I know how you feel my husband had his right lobe removed and one segment of the left lobe. He had finished chemo in May and he had a scan done last week which shows a node in the left lobe of his lung and something in his liver but not sure what it is. One doctor says it is a cyst another says it does not have the density of a cyst the node in the lung is too small to biopsy also his prostate is mildly enlarged so we are just waiting to do further scans. I hope for both you and my husband it is not a recurrence.

    Fay

    Barbara and Fay,I just
    Barbara and Fay,I just prayed for you two.Hopefully nothing wrong with the further scan.Good luck and best wishes to you.
  • Julie 44
    Julie 44 Member Posts: 476 Member

    Good wishes to you

    I'm so sorry you are facing the anxiety that comes with ambiguous scan findings.

    I sincerely hope that all goes well for you and that your doctor gives you an explanation that gives you relief and comfort.

    Strong good wishes are coming your way from sunny California!

    Hatshepsut

    Me too
    I know how you feel cause I am going for my 3 month NED checkup and CEA blood test...So scared to find out but yet I need to know but yet I don't want to know..I like it the way it is...I guess we just need to do it and find out what the next step is...Good luck ...............JULIE
  • Glv49
    Glv49 Member Posts: 206 Member
    Hi,
    I can definetly relate

    Hi,

    I can definetly relate to the roller coaster ride... My hubby had a liver resection in April to remove 1 met to his liver, it was good with clear margins. He had his first PET/CT on Thursday morning, and saw the doc in the afternoon. He said the PET/CT didn't show anything wrong with his liver or any organs, however, one of his lymph nodes lit up near his kidney, he said it could be inflamation, or infection, he wasn't very concerned and said they will check it again in 3 mos, if it grows they will scope it. I am very worried about it, I am glad the scan showed everything else is ok, but now what the heck could this be??? I wonder if anyone else has had a lymph node show up on a PET that wasn't cancer?



    Gail
  • taraHK
    taraHK Member Posts: 1,952 Member
    Hi Barbara,
    Good news about

    Hi Barbara,

    Good news about no recurrence in liver or lungs - yea!

    Sorry that this news about the ovary/kidney is causing you distress. Here's my take -- for what it is worth. "Normal humans" (i.e. those not undergoing treatment or monitoring for cancer) do not have regular scans or any scans at all, ever. IF they did, who knows what "lumps and bumps" they would find. Our radiologists, bless them, HAVE to report anything which looks even slightly abnormal. However, many of those things are probably normal variations or totally benign. I had an MRI of my brain and a small lesion was discovered. BRAIN TUMOUR?!?! But no -- it is something benign, non-problematic, not growing. And who knows how many people may have such things.

    I realize this may not be the case in your case -- but I sure hope it is! Meanwhile --- keep breathing in and out, walk in the light, feed the faith...

    Best wishes,
    tara
  • punch_vj
    punch_vj Member Posts: 88
    Sending Good Vibes!
    Hi, We all know this frustration...and yet

    I agree with the other post here, it is great news about the recent scans. The other info is vague, and if this illness teacehes us anything, it's "one step at a time" and pacing ourselves. There is so much to rejoice about NOW, the good vibes are vibing your way.
  • kmygil
    kmygil Member Posts: 876 Member
    Praying it's nothing.
    Talk about a roller coaster ride! I'm praying the results are all good from the PET/CT scans. Meanwhile, know that good vibes are coming your way.

    Hugs,
    Kirsten
  • dixchi
    dixchi Member Posts: 431
    kmygil said:

    Praying it's nothing.
    Talk about a roller coaster ride! I'm praying the results are all good from the PET/CT scans. Meanwhile, know that good vibes are coming your way.

    Hugs,
    Kirsten

    Bits and Pieces All Add Up
    thanks so much for all your good wishes and if there is
    one thing i have learned thru this is to be your own advocate.
    I picked up the written report and have now called the
    oncologist office and they say the last CEA was 1.3, prior
    to that it was 1.6 so that is normal and i'm beginning to
    wonder if these spots are not benign....like several of you
    have said.....would be suprised what they can find when they
    are looking!! Had my PET scan this morning and see oncologist
    Thursday. It has really helped to get this info before I
    go walking into her office....reduces the anxiety. the PET
    will tell the rest. They scared me once before shortly after
    my liver resection when the area lighted up but have since
    decided that is postoperative stuff. as dorookie says,
    don't worry until there is something to worry about.
  • dixchi
    dixchi Member Posts: 431
    kmygil said:

    Praying it's nothing.
    Talk about a roller coaster ride! I'm praying the results are all good from the PET/CT scans. Meanwhile, know that good vibes are coming your way.

    Hugs,
    Kirsten

    Bits and Pieces All Add Up
    thanks so much for all your good wishes and if there is
    one thing i have learned thru this is to be your own advocate.
    I picked up the written report and have now called the
    oncologist office and they say the last CEA was 1.3, prior
    to that it was 1.6 so that is normal and i'm beginning to
    wonder if these spots are not benign....like several of you
    have said.....would be suprised what they can find when they
    are looking!! Had my PET scan this morning and see oncologist
    Thursday. It has really helped to get this info before I
    go walking into her office....reduces the anxiety. the PET
    will tell the rest. They scared me once before shortly after
    my liver resection when the area lighted up but have since
    decided that is postoperative stuff. as dorookie says,
    don't worry until there is something to worry about.
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    dixchi said:

    Bits and Pieces All Add Up
    thanks so much for all your good wishes and if there is
    one thing i have learned thru this is to be your own advocate.
    I picked up the written report and have now called the
    oncologist office and they say the last CEA was 1.3, prior
    to that it was 1.6 so that is normal and i'm beginning to
    wonder if these spots are not benign....like several of you
    have said.....would be suprised what they can find when they
    are looking!! Had my PET scan this morning and see oncologist
    Thursday. It has really helped to get this info before I
    go walking into her office....reduces the anxiety. the PET
    will tell the rest. They scared me once before shortly after
    my liver resection when the area lighted up but have since
    decided that is postoperative stuff. as dorookie says,
    don't worry until there is something to worry about.

    Hoping for good news
    Sounds like you've done a good job of checking for yourself. Hopefully you'll get very good news when you see the oncologist on Thursday.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • krystle singer
    krystle singer Member Posts: 108

    Good wishes to you

    I'm so sorry you are facing the anxiety that comes with ambiguous scan findings.

    I sincerely hope that all goes well for you and that your doctor gives you an explanation that gives you relief and comfort.

    Strong good wishes are coming your way from sunny California!

    Hatshepsut

    Good message
    Nice quick message! I am a part time speaker and writer so am "wordy". But actually I'm answering because I love your 'name'. As a historian at heart, I wish I knew more about the Egyptian pharoah after whom you are named. I know this has nothing to do with cancer, but I love the name!

    Best wishes and also strong wishes to all
    from NOT so sunny Illinois!

    Sandi
  • krystle singer
    krystle singer Member Posts: 108

    Good wishes to you

    I'm so sorry you are facing the anxiety that comes with ambiguous scan findings.

    I sincerely hope that all goes well for you and that your doctor gives you an explanation that gives you relief and comfort.

    Strong good wishes are coming your way from sunny California!

    Hatshepsut

    Good message
    Nice quick message! I am a part time speaker and writer so am "wordy". But actually I'm answering because I love your 'name'. As a historian at heart, I wish I knew more about the Egyptian pharoah after whom you are named. I know this has nothing to do with cancer, but I love the name!

    Best wishes and also strong wishes to all
    from NOT so sunny Illinois!

    Sandi
  • regslady
    regslady Member Posts: 37
    sending them your way
    I'm sending posivitve vibes and prayers your way.
  • dmdwins
    dmdwins Member Posts: 454 Member
    regslady said:

    sending them your way
    I'm sending posivitve vibes and prayers your way.

    Thinking of you
    I will be thinking of you on Thursday and hoping you get the good news that you deserve.
    Dawn
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    this is the week for me too
    Hi Barbara,

    Hooray for no evidence of recurrence in your liver or lungs!
    I'm just behind you- I get my CT/PET scan done this Thursday & my appt. w/ my oncologist is Tuesday. You were given good advice- that who knows what would show up on the "normal person's" scans if they were given a scan?! There could be benign things that show up & infections are always possible, as is swelling following surgery also normal & swelling does show up as "uptake" on the PETS for a few months following surgery. Albeit, swelling following surgery is usually at the surgical location, but who knows- it maybe could cause swelling other places too.
    I understand how you feel, though, I know I would be worrying too, just because it's hard not to! I'm thinking of you- especially since my own scan is happening soon too. I'll let you know how mine comes out- I'll be praying for you as I pray for myself too.

    Take care!
    Lisa
  • Kathleen808
    Kathleen808 Member Posts: 2,342 Member
    Hi Barbara
    HI Barbara,
    I'll be thinking of you and praying for you on Thursday.
    Aloha,
    Kathleen
  • dixchi
    dixchi Member Posts: 431

    Hi Barbara
    HI Barbara,
    I'll be thinking of you and praying for you on Thursday.
    Aloha,
    Kathleen

    Update
    Saw the oncologist yesterday and she said I am doing well;
    did suggest having pelvic ultrasound on the enlarged ovary
    but with a CEA of 1.3 there is no concern that it is CA
    at this point. She says as long as nothing is growing and
    my CEA is good, she does not get concerned. Hate pelvic
    ultrasounds; they are the ones where you have to drink
    32 oz. water and then hold it in your bladder until they
    get the test done.....miserable feeling...my liver resection
    surgeon also says he is happy with scan results but thinks
    that I should continue having biphasic CT scans not only of
    my liver resection area but of the chest, abdomen and pelvic
    because of the discoveries they made......they are watching
    me like hawks and I am very happy for that. They will watch
    all the spots including nodule on lung and spot in kidney
    very closely for any changes. So I am not worrying; think
    maybe getting hysterectomy or removing ovaries at this point
    in my life is not a bad idea to consider. Am bringing my
    gynecologist in on this one as well and get her opinion.

    Thanks for all your support; could not make it without you.

    Barbara
  • Hatshepsut
    Hatshepsut Member Posts: 336 Member
    dixchi said:

    Update
    Saw the oncologist yesterday and she said I am doing well;
    did suggest having pelvic ultrasound on the enlarged ovary
    but with a CEA of 1.3 there is no concern that it is CA
    at this point. She says as long as nothing is growing and
    my CEA is good, she does not get concerned. Hate pelvic
    ultrasounds; they are the ones where you have to drink
    32 oz. water and then hold it in your bladder until they
    get the test done.....miserable feeling...my liver resection
    surgeon also says he is happy with scan results but thinks
    that I should continue having biphasic CT scans not only of
    my liver resection area but of the chest, abdomen and pelvic
    because of the discoveries they made......they are watching
    me like hawks and I am very happy for that. They will watch
    all the spots including nodule on lung and spot in kidney
    very closely for any changes. So I am not worrying; think
    maybe getting hysterectomy or removing ovaries at this point
    in my life is not a bad idea to consider. Am bringing my
    gynecologist in on this one as well and get her opinion.

    Thanks for all your support; could not make it without you.

    Barbara

    Good!

    Barbara:

    I'm delighted for you that your oncologist had good news and that your doctors are committed to watching you like a hawk. Sounds like you are in good health and good hands!

    I always appreciate your wise posts and your generous support for people on this board.

    Hatshepsut