First Relay of Life tomorrow

tommaseena said:

First relay
It was raining cats and dogs here so I told my mom not to bring Jake down and at the last minute they moved it inside the school. Hotter than you know what in there.
Seeing all the people there was amazing. I met a lot of nice people there.

I did walk the survivors lap and I think I felt more numb than anything. I don't know if it was because my family was not there or I wasn't part of a team or what but I don't know what I really was feeling. I don't know if it is because I am still going through treatment and don't really feel like I have completed the chapter in my life to really call myself a survivor because I am right now surviving.

Next year I still will not be finished with the treatment but maybe where I will be close I will feel something more. Rain or shine my family will be there next year.

I did have you all in my mind and my heart and was saying your names to myself.

I want to be able to feel something more than I did. Will it come in time--I wonder.

Thank you.
Margo

So sorry, Margo...
I'll guess that the weather (gosh, my pre-event post stated: NO RAIN!... guess it didn't help any), and being there solo, without your family, probably contributed to your "numbness"... And, yes - probably also contributing is the fact that you're still in treatment, not yet finished.

If you attend another Relay for Life event, I'll be hoping it's much more inspirational for you. Also, you certainly don't have to participate as a Survivor just because you are one. Anyone can join in honor or memory of loved ones, or as a volunteer to work the event.

Thanks so much for thinking of all of us last night. And, thanks for being there, in spite of the rain.

Kind regards, Susan

P.S.: The rain drove us indoors last summer, too. Into a college gymnasium lacking air-conditioning. Hot and humid as all heck in there, so I know what you mean!

tommaseena said:

What my plans are
I plan on walking the first lap with Jake, my mom and my sister. Let Jake have fun before my mom takes him overnight--so Moopy if he eats junk food I won't have to deal with his energy--my mom will--HAHA.

I am then leaving there to go to a benefit for a friend who has kidney cancer and no insurance.

Then I will be going back for the Luminaria bag and name announcements then coming home and sleeping and then going back in the morning to walk some more.

I will not over due it. I do walk the golf course 18 holes so I could walk some around the track.

Julie,
Have as much fun as I hope too.

Margo-----everyone on this CSN will be in my thoughts tonight---you will all be walking with me and my head will be held high.

Love you all---my CNS family.

Hey Margo! How did your
Hey Margo! How did your first Relay go? Or, did I miss the post somewhere? I will keep

looking for it incase I did. lol