Why them??

Why?

First let me welcome you to the site and glad you were able to put your feelings on paper, that's a very healthy and healing thing to do. You came to the right place to do it as well, lots of caring and understanding folks on these discussion boards, all who have dealt with cancer in one way or another so truly do understand. You will be surprised as to how many feel as you do and have thought the same things. You aren't alone. I want to also, right off the bat, extend to you my deepest sympathies for all you have lost through cancer - you really seem to have had your plate full of it - no wonder you ask why.

Why, you ask? That is a question most of us ask at one time or another, be it as cancer patients or caregivers. Why us? Why them? Why now? I suppose no one really knows the answer to that age old question and that has been debated for centuries in the past and centuries more to come for sure. I personally am a spiritual person and my faith definitely helped me to understand the whys of cancer, I am a 20 year survivor of Non Hodgkins Lymphoma. I still deal with many aftereffects of the treatments but no further cancers have been found. Why should I have survived and others far more worthy did not?, I have no answer except, for me personally, I believe in the evolving of our souls and sometimes certain things happen in our lives that we see as negative but in the grand sceme of things it is all for a reason. I believe our souls go on and evolve so it's all about how many times we go around in search of soul fulfillment but others have different reasonings I am sure, all valid in their own ways I'm sure and whatever works for you.

There are many different takes on 'why' this or that happens in lots of areas of human life. Why did all those people survive that plane crash recently on the Hudson River while others in plane crashes of the same nature die in other accidents?

In grieving the loss of someone close we go through many stages of grief. Why? is one of those stages, as you might already know. It is totally normal to ask the question and go through the other stages as well, such as anger and denial, but the key to remember and watch out for is getting stuck in any one of the stages for too long and it starts to affect your life and outlooks. If a person comes to that point then there are many grief counsellors who specialize in cancer who are very good at helping people through the various stages of grief and loss. You have really had a great deal of loss, perhaps you might give counselling a try if you feel that the 'whys' of it all turn to blame and anger perhaps, or seem to be affecting your life in a negative way.

Once again, let me repeat, you have come to a great site , one where you can express your thoughts about the subject, and receive back some very validating and caring thoughts from others on the site who have been where you are and understand. There is also a chatroom on this sitem, by the wya, if you want to talk in realtime about your issues with cancer, feel free to join in if you like at any time.

I am sure you will get many thoughts on your questioning in your posting, many of which I hope will help you feel less alone in your ideas and on the road to healing from all your losses. Blessings, Blueroses.