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lizper
lizper Member Posts: 199
edited March 2014 in Ovarian Cancer #1
My Mom started having severe back pains since last Monday which don`t allow her to sleep because she can´t stand putting her spinal cord to rest not even on her pillows. She has been "sleeping" sitting on her bed for the past days and taking pain meds. This was only happing at night but yesterday it happened in the afternoon as well.. so today I took her to the Dr. and he order an abdominal tomography because her this the retroperitoneal lymph glands are growing which is deppresing since she has been on chemo since February and has changed chemo meds twice...but we also worried about bone metastasis which is rare in Ovca but God I´m so deppresed, worried, sad,, I'`m only a month away to giving birth.. I need my Mom with me all the way... I feel so hopeless.. what if this is the end of the line for us? Please say many prayers, we will be changing medication again..I`ll let you all know. Liz

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  • floridajo
    floridajo Member Posts: 480
    #2
    Lizper
    I'm so sorry this is happening to your Mom....unrelieved pain is the worse and it can get so scary. And you are such a trooper going through this when ready to deliver anytime now!! I will keep you all in prayer that somehow they will find the right chemo and stop your Moms disease in it's tracks...(((hugz)))~~~Joanne
  • lizper
    lizper Member Posts: 199
    #3
    floridajo said:

    Lizper
    I'm so sorry this is happening to your Mom....unrelieved pain is the worse and it can get so scary. And you are such a trooper going through this when ready to deliver anytime now!! I will keep you all in prayer that somehow they will find the right chemo and stop your Moms disease in it's tracks...(((hugz)))~~~Joanne

    Tks Joanne
    Thank you so much for your words of comfort. We are in Gods hands and I must keep on trusting him. A hug for you. Liz
  • saundra
    saundra Member Posts: 1,370 Member
    #4
    Liz
    When we put our worries into God's hand, we have to trust in Him, even when it isn't what we really wanted. In my Mother's painful last six weeks on earth, I just didn't want to see her hurt anymore. (She broke a hip, had it replaced and then the bone above the knee spit and she had a 22 in steel rod implanted all in six weeks.. ) She was bed fast, in pain, in a diaper and miserable. I just wanted her to be free of pain and the embarrassment of being bedridden. I did everything I could to make her more comfortable and have pleasant memories before it was her time. I put a smile on my face and ignored the unpleasant things as I helped her remember fun times from the past. That seemed to be the most important thing rather than worry which never helped her. I prayed for mercy for her and stamina for me as I was tired all the time (now I know I was carrying the OVCA). I will pray for you both. Saundra
  • BonnieR
    BonnieR Member Posts: 1,526 Member
    #5
    saundra said:

    Liz
    When we put our worries into God's hand, we have to trust in Him, even when it isn't what we really wanted. In my Mother's painful last six weeks on earth, I just didn't want to see her hurt anymore. (She broke a hip, had it replaced and then the bone above the knee spit and she had a 22 in steel rod implanted all in six weeks.. ) She was bed fast, in pain, in a diaper and miserable. I just wanted her to be free of pain and the embarrassment of being bedridden. I did everything I could to make her more comfortable and have pleasant memories before it was her time. I put a smile on my face and ignored the unpleasant things as I helped her remember fun times from the past. That seemed to be the most important thing rather than worry which never helped her. I prayed for mercy for her and stamina for me as I was tired all the time (now I know I was carrying the OVCA). I will pray for you both. Saundra

    What a wonderful Gift
    That is a gift to all, the person leaving the people staying. When my mom was in hospice I would sit and read to her and hold her hand. At first I would try hard to not let her see me cry. BUT .. then one day I laid my head in her lap and told her how much I'd miss her, how much I love her ~ how special she was. I was still one of her girls no matter how old and what a gift to both of us. I encourage people now to snuggle up, crawl in bed, hold their hand .. it is good to know we will be missed, we are loved, we are important and we will all be together again one day.
  • lizper
    lizper Member Posts: 199
    #6
    saundra said:

    Liz
    When we put our worries into God's hand, we have to trust in Him, even when it isn't what we really wanted. In my Mother's painful last six weeks on earth, I just didn't want to see her hurt anymore. (She broke a hip, had it replaced and then the bone above the knee spit and she had a 22 in steel rod implanted all in six weeks.. ) She was bed fast, in pain, in a diaper and miserable. I just wanted her to be free of pain and the embarrassment of being bedridden. I did everything I could to make her more comfortable and have pleasant memories before it was her time. I put a smile on my face and ignored the unpleasant things as I helped her remember fun times from the past. That seemed to be the most important thing rather than worry which never helped her. I prayed for mercy for her and stamina for me as I was tired all the time (now I know I was carrying the OVCA). I will pray for you both. Saundra

    Tks Saundra
    Thank you for sharing your story and helping me have more faith. I will put thing in God´s hands and truy to stay calm and enjoy everything around. Liz
  • lizper
    lizper Member Posts: 199
    #7
    BonnieR said:

    What a wonderful Gift
    That is a gift to all, the person leaving the people staying. When my mom was in hospice I would sit and read to her and hold her hand. At first I would try hard to not let her see me cry. BUT .. then one day I laid my head in her lap and told her how much I'd miss her, how much I love her ~ how special she was. I was still one of her girls no matter how old and what a gift to both of us. I encourage people now to snuggle up, crawl in bed, hold their hand .. it is good to know we will be missed, we are loved, we are important and we will all be together again one day.

    Tks Bonnie
    This is a very good idea, I love her so much but just don`t like to say it because I fell I`m not ready for a goodbye yet..but I think I must do so you never know...ill or not, young or old.. God has his plans and everyone must be prepared. Liz

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