It's Been awhile

I haven't been on here recently, and haven't even checked this network in a while. Sorry... I'm now 4 years' out of dx, surgery (mastectomy), chemo, and still taking tamoxifen. I'm in the 1% who seem to get all the side effects of treatment, and have developed several health issues following chemo. I'm just wondering if there are others out there like me...I am in constant pain...on a fairly significant level. It's the worst in right hip -- for over 3 years' now, the left shoulder (same side as cancer) -- for about a year, both wrists -- recent to the past 2 months, and fingers -- same as wrists timewise. I also have some days where other joints hurt. The shoulder is not limited to the joint, but also to the shoulder blade. Hip isn't limited to the joint, but also to the leg bone and lower back and groin. bone scan in November 06 showed "possible arthritis," not a definitive diagnosis by any means. I've read that arthritis pain is worse in mornings when stiffness and so forth makes it hard to start the day. But, I have pain constantly -- all day and all night. It's debilitating. Although I press through it, it's becoming very depressing, and I feel like my quality of life is practically nil. I'm most fearful that my cancer has returned. There was a "spot" on a rib on left side that last bone scan said was "questionable" yet no follow-up has been ordered, and my oncologist seems to have automatically ruled out mets. but, to be in constant (!) pain...it doesn't make sense to me. And, to have developed arthritis in such a short span seems unlikely to me, too. I'm thinking I need a full-body MRI or PET scan or something. I can't live like this for the rest of my life (I'm only 48...). Any thoughts? Suggestions? Anybody out there suffering like I am? If so, what has YOUR doctor told you? Thanks. ~Barb