Hi friends

Hi friends. I haven't posted or read in months!

Things have been sort of sliding downhill for us. Jim is hardly eating. He's in excruciating pain, and they think it's coming from his liver. So right now he's getting down a couple of Ensure shakes a day, and that's it. Needless to say, he needs to keep his weight on in order to continue putting up a super-charged fight.

I am discouraged tonight. We are starting to have talks about "the hard stuff". I know it would be foolish NOT to talk about it, but it disheartens me so much.

I have taken over all the work at the house since Jim is almost completely immobile at this point. It's hard for both of us to have that happen.

Over the last month we've been on a tour across the US looking for new treatment options. The Mayo Clinic told us our best option was to stop treatment. We were just sick - Jim is only 38 years old and otherwise a very healthy guy. We have two young kids. We can't stop looking for something.

We did have a great visit at Sloan Kettering, though. Dr. Kemeny never once mentioned stopping treatment. She marched right in and helped us lay out a plan. Now that's a woman who's speaking my language!

We are currently in the process of getting Jim radiation microspheres for his liver at Northwestern. Things on his liver are not good. We're hoping this can stem the tide and possibly decrease some of his abdominal pain so that he can go back to systemic chemo (a trial) with both fists swinging.

We desperately need your prayers. For courage, for strength, for grace and for healing.

Thanks so much everyone. I've missed reading and posting, but I'm going to try and join in more often.

Kate