Long absence

Hi, I have not posted for a long time but my husband was dx in July 2003 and has done very well until now. We are a little concerned as his CEA levels have been going up gradually and he has to have another done next month along with his annual scan. In the meantime, I was dx with lymphoma and have just completed six months of chemo/monoclonal antibody treatment. I am feeling well apart from a slight pain in the left lower side of my pelvis. This pain had actually caused me to go to the doctor in the first place. No cause was found and then the lymphoma showed up on the ct scan. The pain went away...even though it was located far from the lymphoma... and came back after six months. Now, I have to have a colonoscopy and am very nervous about the possible outcome. I have dealt with the lymphoma dx very well and managed to keep upbeat throughout treatment (apart from the odd days when I felt pretty bad) but now, I feel quite fed up! I feel even if the colonoscopy comes out OK (if it does not, then that is a whole new ball game!) I still have lymphoma and we still have concerns about my husband! There is no end. The lymphoma is indolent so incurable so it will never go away. I will just have to get treated when it recurs. Sorry, just a little rant! There is only so much a soul can take! I see some familiar names on the forum and glad to see so many doing well. That is encouraging.

Love to all, Ali