chemo

crazylady
crazylady Member Posts: 543 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Hi everyone,
Tomorrow I see my onc to discuss chemo options. I am absoloutely dreading going back on chemo!!! After 3 months off of chemo I was feeling really good, better than I'd felt in months. Does anyone have any tips on how to make myself look at this in a positive way. I know intellectually that I have to do it, but emotionally I just don't want to deal with it. I'm tired of having my life interfered with and not being able to do things that I want to do.
Thank You,
Jamie

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  • krkath
    krkath Member Posts: 72
    #2
    HI Jamie, I'm so sorry you have to go through this again. I usually am on the Breast Cancer board, but since Kathi M. has been through both B/C and Col./C, I look at both sites now. I know if I had to do it again, I would be devastated. But I'm sure you'll hear from Super Woman Kathi M. on the subject. She is such an inspiration as to everything she has gone through. You are ALSO strong and know you do what you have to do, to fight and beat the BEAST! HUGS to you and you are in my prayers.
    Kathy
  • AuthorUnknown
    AuthorUnknown Member Posts: 1,537 Member
    #3
    Hi Jamie,

    I am sorry for what you are going through. Maybe it will help you if you think that you are doing it for the sake of your children. They need you and you need to recover so you can take care of them.

    I wish you the best for your treatment.

    Hugs to you.
    Eleonora
  • taraHK
    taraHK Member Posts: 1,952 Member
    #4
    I just ache when I read your email. I have had to get back on that horse myself. It's as tough as anything I've had to do. Frankly, each time one of us crosses the threshhold of a hospital is an act of amazing strength! Things I have thought, to try to psych myself through more chemo: 1. (as Eleonara has already said): I'm doing this to gain more time with my children. 2. The word chemo carries such negative emotional weight -- I try to think of it as medicine. 3. My first oncology nurse used to say, just before she started my infusion, "Let the healing begin". So I repeat this mantra to myself now. 4. I find it helpful to think of some of us as living with a chronic disease. We may have to have periods with treatment, then periods without treatment, for a long long time. But, we are LIVING with this disease. My heart and prayers are with you.
    Tara
  • AuthorUnknown
    AuthorUnknown Member Posts: 1,537 Member
    #5
    impactzone posted it the other day: when he went for this 1st chemo he imagined it being a golden light streaming into his body. He said it helped.
  • Limey
    Limey Member Posts: 446 Member
    #6
    Thanks everyone for the nice posts on this subject. I too am going for surgery on 10/13 then back on folfox and not overly exzcited about it. It does help knowing that others have done this and they are still here to support us. That gives me hope. My son (8) told me today that I will get better and then I will be fun again - now that makes me want to get healthy. And you can bet your **** I will get through chemo and get fun again for him. your not alone Jamie. I always count backwards on my treatments. X many left is easier because the number always gets closer to none.
    Stay strong.
    Mark
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    #7
    The one that got me was my 5th second opinion. I tried to find SOMEONE who would agree that I could SKIP CHEMO on my breast cancer....
    Head oncologist at UCLA's breast cancer clinic....
    "You have fought so hard in the past, and have been victorious. Why would you want to throw that effort away by stopping now?" Stopped me in my tracks. The ONE ARGUMENT I couldn't throw aside....sigh....
    I am so sorry you must do this again. But, in the final analysis, I hate to lose....and I will do ANYTHING to slay the beast!!!! I pass the baton to you....I'm sure it will work out well!

    Hugs from a been there/done that!
    Kathi
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    #8
    krkath said:

    HI Jamie, I'm so sorry you have to go through this again. I usually am on the Breast Cancer board, but since Kathi M. has been through both B/C and Col./C, I look at both sites now. I know if I had to do it again, I would be devastated. But I'm sure you'll hear from Super Woman Kathi M. on the subject. She is such an inspiration as to everything she has gone through. You are ALSO strong and know you do what you have to do, to fight and beat the BEAST! HUGS to you and you are in my prayers.
    Kathy

    Aw, Kathy Thanks for the buildup! I am blushing!
    We are all one solid front, fighting the beast together. Without each other for strengh, we would be lost.
    Hugs to you!
    Kathi

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