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blossomtime
blossomtime Member Posts: 98
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Maybe I am being a hyper responsive but last week I found something that feels a little unusual in the nonaffected breast. Very small but definitely hard. My last experience with this left no doubt in my mind what I had found. But now I am much more diligent with breast exams.I didnt want to mention it to my dr until I was sure what I had found but a friend talked me into it. So I am scheduled for mammogram tomorrow. It is probably nothing but can't help thinking about it. I don't want to be a person that runs to the dr with the slightest thing. Actually the friend that I talked to 4 days ago has never mentioned it since to see if I even spoke to the dr. Maybe she thinks I am over reacting too. That has certainly hurt my feelings. I don't think others who have not gone throught this once have a clue what it does to ones life. Sorry to ramble, just needed to talk this out. Thanks

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  • Gardengal
    Gardengal Member Posts: 8
    #2
    Dear Blossomtime--
    After what you have been through, how can you worry about whether you are overreacting???? I don't think it's possible to run to the doctor with the slightest thing--you know your body better than anyone(including a doctor). I think you were smart to schedule the mammo ASAP. I pray that it's nothing.
    Good Luck!
    Gardengal
  • krisrey
    krisrey Member Posts: 194
    #3
    Hi Blossomtime,
    Don't ever think you are over-reacting. You have every right to be, as you say hyper responsive!
    This same thing happened to me last month. I found that I didn't want to tell the doctors because I was so scared of reoccurance that I didn't want to deal with it. I have only been out of treatment since dec 30. Anyway, I had my doc check the other breast and he could not even feel the small lump until I pointed it out. He sent on the same day for an ultrasound, which made me really panic because they found not only one but two. They scheduled me the following week for a biopsy and then I went through the few days of hell waiting for the results. In my case the small lumps were fiberous tissue. THANK GOD...and hopefully this will be the same case with you. The thing is blossom, now that we have had breast cancer, they cannot rule out anything with our breast. I am schuduled for an MRI in May because I have very dense tissue and the mammogram does not show anything. I think the best check is self exam, that is how I found my intial lump also.
    I will hope and pray that yours is nothing, please let us know how you make out.
    Kris
  • judiek
    judiek Member Posts: 71
    #4
    Blossomtime,

    You are not overreacting...you feel something and until you have it checked out you will continue to worry. When I was going through chemo I found a lump in my opposite breast...I had it checked out and it was a cyst. Good luck to you and I will say an extra prayer for you.

    Warmly,


    Judie
  • bunnie
    bunnie Member Posts: 233
    #5
    Hi it is hard not too overreact when you have gone through what we have.I had breast cancer and a mastecomy in jan03 in dec of 03 i ended up with a cough for along time and didnt go too the doc becase i was afaraid too.when i finally did go they did some test and found out that my cancer is back.It is know in the lungs and the rib cages.I have been doing chemo i cant belive that i hadnt even been off chemo a year before this came back iam always thinking know is this something iam going to have to deal with forever.Anyways i hope everything works out for you and it ends up being noithing.Please keep us posted.Bunnie
  • blessings1020
    blessings1020 Member Posts: 54
    #6
    bunnie said:

    Hi it is hard not too overreact when you have gone through what we have.I had breast cancer and a mastecomy in jan03 in dec of 03 i ended up with a cough for along time and didnt go too the doc becase i was afaraid too.when i finally did go they did some test and found out that my cancer is back.It is know in the lungs and the rib cages.I have been doing chemo i cant belive that i hadnt even been off chemo a year before this came back iam always thinking know is this something iam going to have to deal with forever.Anyways i hope everything works out for you and it ends up being noithing.Please keep us posted.Bunnie

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Bunnie.

    May God keep you in His care.

    Diane
  • blessings1020
    blessings1020 Member Posts: 54
    #7
    You are absolutely NOT being "hyper responsive". My word for the way I am being treated is "neurotic".

    After a b/c diagnosis, I notice that I am examining my breast a lot more and am very cautious about every little thing I feel, every cough, every pain, etc. Who better to know our bodies than ourselves?

    I am glad you are having the mammogram and I wish you the best tomorrow. I hope you get wonderful news and this will relieve your mind (for now).

    I really don't think others realize how much we are going through and how our feelings are right at the surface and they might feel "uncomfortable" around us or not know what to say. In some circles, if you don't talk about it, it really isn't happening (sound familiar).

    Since I found this board a couple of days, I have been posting like crazy...rambling? Maybe but I have found that everyone is more than willing to listen.

    Take care.
  • billandpatty
    billandpatty Member Posts: 86
    #8
    You're not over-reacting. It's a natural thing for all of us to be super sensitive to our bodies. About a year after I finished treatments, I had a HUGE lump on the side of my knee. It seemed to just appear. My husband was out of town, I had no one to tell because I didn't want to alarm anyone. I called my doctor and I got right in. She didn't know what to tell me, she called in another doctor that said "wait awhile and see what it does" !!! As soon as he left the room, my doctor said "we're not waiting!!! and pulled out an order for an MRI, instructed me to call for the earliest appt. I could get. I went in for the MRI on a Friday night at 8 p.m. The tech I had was wonderful and was able to put my mind at ease -- he was able to tell me it was fluid, not a solid mass (he also told me he could get in trouble for telling me that, but thought that my mind could use some good news). Then I found out I had a torn miniscus and for some reason the "Baker's Cyst" was on the side of my knee instead of at the back of my knee. I ended up having surgery to repair it and it's doing great. What I'm getting at (after rambling on...!) is that my doctor realized how terrified I was about a lump and when she wasn't able to diagnose what it was, she didn't tell me to go home and wait it out, she knew I was very worried. It turned out to be a problem, but not a life threatening problem for which I was very relieved.

    People that haven't experienced what all of us have been through, just don't know what level of thought we're on. They know we've been through a lot, but they really haven't felt all our pain and that many side effects go on long after treatments have ended. Once you've had cancer, you feel vulnerable -- that it can happen again. It's ok to be watchful of what you know is going on in your body. That's the only way you can try and catch things early. Sometimes we get clues and sometimes we don't -- it's our job to recognize the clues if there are any.

    Take care.

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