Moving on

I hope my story will help others to understand how to cope with a lost one with children. My wife was diagnose with breast cancer in 95, met to the bones in 99, then to the liver in late of 03. My wife JoAn lost the battle with cancer after 9 years of fighting, but my wife won the war against cancer because she is in a better place and pain free now. The biggest regret is that I have not making her life has fun as it should be. Even the cancer has limit her movement she still has energy to go out especially for our son. The one wish that she got before she passed away was that I, our son and her mother was present at the time of her passing. That wish came true, She wanted our son to experience death, and he did. At first he did not open up, nor want to talk about it. We had help from the hospice, which they gave a book about death for children. My wife and my son read the book together. He knows that every life there is a beginning and a ending, and he understand that his mommy is going to a better place. As for I, i'am a closed , tight person who holds everying inside. I have family, friends who gives me support, but I offen shut them out. Thats just the way I am. I grieve in a different way, and I am in alot of stress. I worried about me later, I have a 7 year old to worried about , he is now number 1 to watch/ take care of. My wife was 41 when she passed away, and that is too young in my book... For those who read this message please give your wife/ husband/ children the emotional support that they need. Sometime money is a big issue as it was for me, but I realized that money cannot bring her back..
Remember cancer has no cure and it take whoever it wants. Take the time with your love ones , make them feel like their in top of the world. I lost my chance, hope you don't make the same mistakes. As for me and my son, we are trying to move on with life with her memory in our heart. R.I.P. JoAn. this is for you......