epirubicin and side effects

As I write this subject I feel sick. Does anyone feel that way? I have one more chemo in February and I will be finished . Then I will start my radiation.I noticed that as I go along with the chemo,i notice harder side effects than when I began.For instance now I start to get hot flashes which wake me up during the night. I never had those until now. Also now my feet want to cramp and get sore.When I wake up and start walking in the morning, I feel as if my feet have walked a long way during the night.I want to stretch my legs and feet alot and I wonder why I do this. Next is the terrible smell. I went into JC Pennys to look at their sale on dresses and I had to leave as soon as I walked in there.The dye and chemical smell was so strong (but only to me),that last night when I thought about it,I started gagging. When I wash my hands I can`t stand the smell of the soap etc..Even going to this site right after my chemo is hard because the (sight ) of the web sitemakes me subconciously think about chemo and cancer..I am so whiney compared to the folks on here who go through chemo after chemo. I feel so deeply for them.I wonder where they get their strength because the thought of doing this again is unimaginable.Terrible to hate chemo so bad.When I think of how everything felt BEFORE I had chemo,I feel i didn`t realize how lucky I was to be healthy.I realize health is one of the most important things in the world.What is riches if you feel sick? I was talking to my husband last night who smokes alot. I said to him "If you knew how precious your health is you would never smoke again. " I told him also,"Right now you feel great but one day you could wake up sick and then you will remember how wonderful it was to enjoy not being short of breath or weak." He likes to play computer games. I said "what if you was playing your computer games and while you play you feel nauseated and trembly?". That is what happens when you become sick.Everything you enjoy takes more effort..I just hope he understands that even though I go to work or go out to eat or go shopping , I always battle my weaknessness with chemo. Copared to those who have it much worse than me ,I could just break down crying thinking of going through this over and over.But as my husband says"YOU WoULD DO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN TO SAVE YOUR LIFE.He is right. So easy for those who don`t get chemo to automatically suggest more chemo.Life is hard.......Shirl