Im in the waiting phase, and Im terrified.

Im new here, so I apologies if this isnt how things are done. But I really need some help from anyone who is willing to listen. Please excuse the text wall.

So, a little background information ( sorry for the information overload): 1) I got my first period when I was about 9 (early periods are common in my family)...2) my grandmother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer about 6-7 years ago (still fighting and thriving!), and so many people in my family have various types of cancer...3)after about a year of begging my mom to take me to the doctor because of extreme pain on the right side of my hip and my grandmothers (then) recent diagnosis I found out I had bilateral ovarian cysts at the age of 15-ish. The doctor tried to convince me that it was my anxiety producing symptoms and I was being attention seeking, but an ultrasound showed several large cysts on both ovaries with one on my right ovary already at the 5cm mark...4) When I was 18 I moved out to live with my now fiance who took me to the ER due to a spike in the pain and it was discovered that while most of the cysts went away two were still with me: one 6-ish cm (left ovary) and one 7-ish cm (right ovary)... 5) My right ovary has always been my more painful side, my periods have always been excruciating, any cramping during my periods causes me to collapse where I am standing and keeps me down anywhere between 30 mins to an hour until the cramps subside, and my periods are sometimes irregular where (sorry for the TMI) my pads will stay completely clean but when I go to the bathroom clumps of blood will come out and be on the toilet paper.. Like it refuses to come out normally and only in clumps, but then other periods are completely normal (Ive been having this issue for probably 7 years now)... 6) I do not bleed after sex but I have had one occasion where I spotted for a few days nowhere near when my period was meant to start and it has seemed to I guess kickstart my period a few times.

Where Im at right now: I am now 20. My fiance proposed to me in april of 2022, and we plan to elope on the same day in 2023. My in-laws bought 20 acres of land where we're in the process of building our houses on (about to start in december), and we really want to try to have kids (goal of 4! <3) right after we elope. Thats still the plan as Im trying my best to remain optimistic, but recent news from my doctor has slammed the brakes on everything and has me terrified. My amazing fiance has been helping me fight to get these dang cysts removed, and we kept being ran in circles by doctors with one useless appointment after another each being 1 month apart and going nowhere towards the actual surgery. Then, I got into a car crash (as a passenger) about 2-3 months ago (all are okay!) and the seatbelt really hurt my ovaries. Went to the ER right after the crash scene was handled, fought the doctor for an ultrasound because I was worried about a ruptured cyst, and the ultrasound showed the right cyst has grown to around 12-13cmx10cmx9(ish)cm (since the 7cm size only one year prior). They scheduled me to see a gyno about a month or so out, but I called the different offices myself and got scheduled within a couple weeks. The gyno looked at my ultrasounds, said they are fluid-filled which she said is good, pushed on my pelvic area and said its a good sign that the pain is more intense as shes letting go than when she is pushing in, and told me that she would schedule the pre-op surgery to remove the cyst for 5-6 weeks away with the actual surgery being a week after that. But before I left... she ran the dreaded CA125 test, which I didnt know was a thing before now. Ive read a few things on this site, and apparently the general consensus is screw that test and its not an accurate determination for ovarian cancer...? Im not going against that and that does make me feel better, but my results came back slightly high and worried my gyno. Only slightly, but still high. I believe it was 34 or 35. I feel awful for being worried about that number after reading some of the results other women have gotten, but I cant help feel my anxiety rising because of it. Any blood tests Ive had (I used to get them frequently due to an ED and other health issues) have always shown normal white blood cell counts, so thats I good sign, right? My gyno said she wasnt too worried but that the new potential for OV made her want to consult with an oncologist to see if they wanted to perform the surgery themselves instead of her. But now my gyno is saying the oncologist believes my cyst is high risk, wants to run more blood tests, and its all pushing back my surgery date even more. I understand the need for them to be sure, but after begging all my past doctors to test me for 5-6 years now Im getting worried sick and frustrated that they wont just take it out and biopsy it after its out of me. Do a fully open abdominal opening, I dont care, just take out the cyst and take out that whole ovary if you have too... yknow? If Ive had this growing inside me for this many years and doctors have ignored me, what if its gotten to late stages that kill me when Im barely 20? Right before Im married, can have kids, can live my life, and can enjoy and give my husband a love-filled future? Im so angry at my past doctors, myself for not pushing this hard sooner, and regrettably at my current doctors for seemingly (even though I know its not true) not caring about my health as much as I and my fiance do. Im trying so hard not to focus on the negative, not to search the web and worry myself more, not to assume I have cancer before the result are back... Im trying to tell myself all the things that point to it not being cancer, and I know I have to stay positive and just get through it even if it IS. But the waiting while things move at a crawl is eating away at me.

I guess what Im looking for here is... What do yall think? I know its unlikely you (whoever may read this) is a doctor, but Im asking anyone who may be in a similar position as me, someone who has beaten it, or someone who is going through it currently. I know the general advice is you shouldnt worry until you know, but if anyone can give me words of encouragement, advice, coping tips, what you think my odds of having it might be if you have an opinion on that, or anything else. Please let me know. My fiance of course cares, loves me, is scared himself, and tries his best to make me feel better, but theres no way I can really express or show him how I feel right now. His mother beat thyroid cancer when he was young, his father is battling brain cancer (10 years strong!), and our dog just got diagnosed with cancer literally yesterday, so theres just a lot of emotions revolving around cancer spinning in our heads right now. Any words are appreciated right now.

Thanks for anything.