I Know I’m Overreacting

Agree with Denise.  Maybe you do have EC, maybe you don't.  Perhaps he sees an interesting case either way. My words of wisdom:  It is what it is.  Whatever it is, your situation is established, and what you need now is a competent analysis.  I had a second opinion done at Moffitt in 2005.  You'll be in good hands there.  Congratulate yourself on your successful self-advocacy!  Best wishes, Oldbeauty

We always tell others who come here to take things one step at a time. Getting diagnosed, then staged, and then a treatment plan is a process. There are so many variables involved that looking too far ahead is the surest way to needlessly scare yourself silly about things that won't necessarily apply to your particular circumstances. Celebrate that you are now in good hands and will get your questions answered. Well done on advocating for yourself!

You are in the best of hands with Dr. Wenham! He and his staff are incredibly knowledgable and caring. Be prepared to wait a bit... they usually run behind schedule.

It sounds like you are dealing with anxiety. You may want to consider using an anti-anxiety med just to get you through the beginnings of this stressful journey. This is the hardest time in the process. Once you know what you are dealing with and have a plan (if one is needed) things will settle down for you.

Deep breath! Your appointment will be here before you know it.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

I am thinking of you and am in a similar spot while I wait to get a hysterscopy. I have Kaiser in California at the moment, and I am in the middle of trying to decide if I switch insurances and start with a PPO in September. My current ob/gyn at Kaiser is in charge of scheduling the hysterscopy, but the waiting is making me crazy. I have bounced around this forum to try to pull the valuable information that members have contributed to your posts to help in my situation as well. The sonogram findings mentioned a 1.7 cm polyp versus submucosal fibroid, but what I read of hypoechoic and heterogeneous doesn't look great for if it is a polyp. I am also trying to sort things out, but I am making myself more confused than probably helping. 

I will be praying for you, Spydergal, and I am happy to hear you will be able to meet with someone you will be able to trust. 

t519

Harmanygroves said:

Interesting comment from you, and made me think...

It made me think of when I had first moved to Cambodia. I began using some of the language before I could understand spoken language answers back to me. I would ask "How much?" when at the Asian outdoor market. The Cambodian saleslady would say, "M'puan riel," and I'd hold out a handful of bills and let them take the right amount. Of course, they were probably earning a lot of money from me. You simply can't learn enough about all this uterus stuff right away. Take your time, and use this rich resource of the think tank here!

 

Hugs, lady.

I love your description regarding when you first arrived in Cambodia. I work within a French/American bilingual school system, so the picture painted is perfect.

I found out today that the hysterscopy wouldn't be completed until Sept. 29th if I stay with my current insurance. I am up for re-enrollment before Sept. 1st if I want to switch to a PPO. When I spoke to my doctor today, she said she can get me in for the endometrial biopsy on August 27th, and they can try another ultrasound to see if it is any clearer this time due to having my past one the day before my period was set to start. I went ahead and let her book that appointment, but I am uncertain that it makes sense as my understanding has been until we actually look at the pathology of the particular polyp, the endometrial biopsy might miss something. 

I believe if I switch insurance, I could still probably have the hysterscopy around the same time frame, but I feel a bit like I am flying into the unknown.

The women on this forum are helping me hold it together in the midst of anxiety. You are all so amazingly helpful with the information you have provided to one another and to those reading your words in the middle of the night when they can't sleep. Thanks for all you provide to others without knowing.

Also, spydergal, thinking of you. 

Harmanygroves said:

If this, Then that...

What amazing women this forum attracts.Your brilliance and comments make me smile.

I always worry that my comments are a bit too random and anecdotal, but I of course am connecting deeply with how you are feeling right now.

Whatever you can do to get checked, monitored, and keep moving that ball down the field is what you need to do.

I have found it very helpful to only give myself so much screen and research time. Any deep breathing, massage, etc. happy place activities you can do are a big green checkmark right now.

All the loves--

Deb aka "the other deb"

The happy place activity was relaxing in a pool this afternoon with a friend. I didn't realize how much I have been researching and not living the last few days. It was good to feel sunshine on my face and regroup. 

I came home afterwards and signed documents to switch insurance from my HMO to a PPO. It took some balancing and researching further regarding choice of doctors in the area, but I feel much better taking control of the situation and feeling that I might be able to get an appointment for the hysterscopy sooner. 

Thanks again for the encouragement. I am thinking of each and every person on this forum and hoping each one of you has sunshine on your face this week. 

Unfortunately, you've missed the 8/15 deadline for enrolling in an (Obamacare)marketplace place insurance plan. This was a special extension to the normal signup period that happens in the fall. There are still some exceptions that enable people to enroll in a marketplace plan outside of the fall signup period, but these options are more limited. See https://www.healthcare.gov/coverage-outside-open-enrollment/special-enrollment-period/

But if your income qualifies, you can apply for Medicaid at any time of the year.

Getting advice from a financial advisor is a good step. That person may be able to suggest other options for you to consider.

Ideally you would get an insurance policy that covers the doctors/facilities that you be having treatment at, if you find that you do have cancer. So a "PPO" type plan is usually better than an "HMO" plan that typically limits providers. But the reality is that you may have to take what is available now, and think about changing during the open enrollment period later.

Of course, if you are 65 or older (I don't remember if you've said this before), Medicare is available with either a supplement plan or under a Medical Advantage plan.

Spydergal said:

The What insurance is best

The What insurance is best for cancer care is another thing I have to worry about to. Already considering getting a divorce so if I have to file for bankruptcy it won't destroy both of our credit scores. I have made an appointment with a financial advisor to figure all this out. Yes I'm getting ahead of myself, I am a planner. I want to have everything laid out and set into motion while I'm still healthy enough to do so. Dealing with our current healthcare system doesn't help. I have family in Germany, they have a fabulous healthcare system. When my uncle was diagnosed with emphysema all his healthcare was paid for. They don't face financial ruin and have to file for bankruptcy like we do here. My cousin Angela has MS and she has excellent care without the stress of figuring out how to pay for it. I don't know how you gals deal with all this. I am overwhelmed with what do I do if I have cancer, what treatments will I need, how painful will they be, will they be successful, how do we pay for them, etc. etc. etc. Yes I am going to find a therapist to help me deal with all this. Some tramadol would definitely be helpful, lol. This is all new to me and because of my TBI I automatically panic, lose control of my thoughts, my memory actually gets worse than it already is, lose my temper quickly, everything bothers me, I get overly emotional over everything , I cry all the time, even when there is no reason to. This forum is helping me get through this with all the information that would take hours of Google searches to find. Information that only somebody that has this type cancer would know. Personal experiences and sharing your emotions is priceless. I don't know any of you personally but feel like I do, I am grateful for every one of you for your help and support. Thank You!!!!!!!  Damn it I'm crying now. 

for the 1st 18 months. Still cry much easier today than before my dx. For me, it was a release, but I was 100% unable to control my emotions.  Nature's way of keeping you balanced, exhausted, embarrassed? I cried at the store, at the restaurant, at the doctor's, at the Christmas party! My husband was so kind and acceptedthe fact (because he is much more of a crier in real life than I ever was, but never in front of my kids). I can only speak for myself, but it was just as natural way to deal with my extreme anxiety as anything. I also was prescribed Ativan, which helped. Sometimes the healthiest thing to do us just give into it. Being able to let it all out at the most inappropriate times was all I could manage. 

xoxo Denise