don't care

What don't you care about, Tom? 

Can you tell us, becasue we care, and we want to help.

Tru

This was me for a few days this week, mostly because of things unrelated to cancer oddly enough. I keep wondering, when am I going to catch a break? And I don't. But well, infusion week is here again and here I go in the morning to absorb the delicious medication. Not caring is a luxury I don't have, I have people who I would like to keep on seeing and I think they would like to keep on seeing me. There is a freedom and perhaps a bravery in not caring, but for me, I'm not really free to think so.

I think that the posts that are on this board help people who are just going through this for the first time, and maybe part of our little legacy is that we've passed on some information that people may want. So maybe don't delete your stuff.

Tom M. said:

Sorry

I'm sorry for my little hissy fit.Sometimes everythig is too much to handle. My son in law (Phd in micro biology) researched Lonsurf for me and gave me some up lifting info. It seems to have good results when used with Avastian. Also I am set up for Thursday to see a IR Doctor to remove liver tumors through ablation. It's not over yet.I will continue my fight with my cancer.  PS The oncoligst is holding back Avistian until after ablations. You are all my support group. We don't have a cancer support group where I live. Kinda silly because allot of folks have cancer. Oh well, thank you my friends.   Tom

I also felt better after seeing some good things about stivarga. And after reading up on ablation and deciding to get a consult on it. Just trying to get up the courage to tell my oncologist that last part. You know, I threw a bit of a fit. I feel really bad, but I also think that getting upset for a little bit means that you are I are human beings. It is normal to get upset. And it is great that we pick ourselves up, and decide to fight!

Thanks for that bit about avastin. I am guessing that Lonsurf will be my next drug after stivarga, and good to know avastin can be used with it. I have never had it. I was going to get it with oxaliplatin, but I got folfox over 6 to 8 hours because I was allergic to it, and each time was worse, so he didn't want to add any drugs.

Tom M. said:

Sorry

I'm sorry for my little hissy fit.Sometimes everythig is too much to handle. My son in law (Phd in micro biology) researched Lonsurf for me and gave me some up lifting info. It seems to have good results when used with Avastian. Also I am set up for Thursday to see a IR Doctor to remove liver tumors through ablation. It's not over yet.I will continue my fight with my cancer.  PS The oncoligst is holding back Avistian until after ablations. You are all my support group. We don't have a cancer support group where I live. Kinda silly because allot of folks have cancer. Oh well, thank you my friends.   Tom

Thank you for posting this tom my dad has a long way to go on folfiri but it's always good to know good info on new treatment . I will for sure be researching the lonsurf avastin combo for future for him . No worries about getting upset your entitled to it all cancer patients are I will be praying for you and your family and I am glad you found some uplifting news about lonsurf keep the hope going . 

Tom M. said:

Sorry

I'm sorry for my little hissy fit.Sometimes everythig is too much to handle. My son in law (Phd in micro biology) researched Lonsurf for me and gave me some up lifting info. It seems to have good results when used with Avastian. Also I am set up for Thursday to see a IR Doctor to remove liver tumors through ablation. It's not over yet.I will continue my fight with my cancer.  PS The oncoligst is holding back Avistian until after ablations. You are all my support group. We don't have a cancer support group where I live. Kinda silly because allot of folks have cancer. Oh well, thank you my friends.   Tom

If you would have a change of heart, I am glad you did. I have hissy fits all the time! I am hoping the nee drugs combined with the ablation are just what you need. sending prayers  to you Tom!

Tom M. said:

Kind words

Thank you all for you kind words. I met with with the IR Doctor last week. They are going to do Radioembolization on liver mets. I looked it up. Ok, let's get 'er done. I will keep you all posted.

Hope and pray they zap those mets once and for all! Keep us posted.

  Tom, we haven't spoken but you have people there who care for you. That alone is something some don't have. If there is anyone who needs you, you better step up and get well for their sake. Hate to be harsh but we've all been in the self pity camp from time to time and need a swift kick in the a$$ to get moved out of the black pit of dispare. Been there done that but once I look at my young children I realize real quick I'm all they have and must stay around for them. Find that focus.

Tom M. said:

no self pity

Darcher, I have no self pity. I have been giving this whole thing a good fight from the begining. I had a 1 day lapse but got over it. I worry most for my family as any father and husband would. I have no intentions of giving into anything. I'm still very much in this game.

You're both tougher than I, self-pity has snuck in there more than a few times. I beat it back, having a wife in such jeopardy most of the time I was, kids that needed me more and more as she faltered, and still running my small business in between everything,  it was somehow easier not to dwell on my particular prospects much, but it still found its way on occasion. I believe in ''the stiff upper lip'', but I also believe to be connected is to be honest with your feelings, as well. The logic in formal Stoicism helped quite a bit, but even that's a hard mount to stay up on. I prefer having those moments when I'm alone, and getting past them, to suppressing any feelings when they come, because I owe it to my family.........................................Dave