My husband is gone

Your kind words and support has meant so much to me over all these years and now as well. I have made so many connections along the way and hold so many of you close to my heart. I love getting to know a few of you better through Facebook as well. I am always open to that. We are barely hanging on by thread here, nighttime is the worst. Before covid he would be at work at all day so I am used to being alone. nighttime the kids and I miss him so much.  He kept saying when he knew he was dying that it would be easier for me I wouldn't be obsessing about his eating, or bloodwork etc anymore but I would rather be doing that than missing him. my house smells like a flower shop and i have so many edible fruit platters I could start a produce stand. I wish someone would send cupcakes or something lol 

anywsy I will check in from time to time I worry about you all! Thank you again for all the love and support!