Another fistula

Slow-runner said:

Another challenge

Hey Jan just read your post, am very sorry for this recent development and pray that it can be repaired laprascopically.  You continue to amaze me and give me such hope.  My husband took a real downward turn in April, truly thought I would be without him this summer.  As bleak as things looked, thinking of the difficulties you have overcome gave both of us hope that just maybe this wasn't his time.  He has turned the corner and is improving each day.  His CEA also is on the rise again but physically he is improving so much that the doc is not too concerned.  I re-read your story often to remind myself just how challenging the ups and downs of this disease can be. I hope you continue to face each day with your positive outlook and wonderful spirit. Mary

Mary, thank you so much for telling me that!! I feel like one of the few things I have left to offer in this world is hope and it's so important to me to do that. To know that I was able to to give both of you hope has me in tears, I am so happy. It's morning and you've just made my whole day! I'm SO glad he's doing better!! Thank you! Give him a hug for me for being a fighter, please!

Oh, I feel so good now. My husband is away until later today and I had to get the garbage out to the street for pick up today and I was wiped out after but now I feel so invigorated, thank you.

Jan

Annabelle41415 said:

I'm so sorry

I'm sorry about the CEA and fistula.  It has to be a let down and I'm not sure how much I'm able to add to that.  Just wishing you could have caught a break.  Maybe the MRI will give you some positive news on a better fix than another surgery.

Hugs!  Kim

Thanks Kim. The constant things my body seems to come up with are really getting old. I didn't even cry, I was just 'yup, here we go again'. I just have to be thankful that it isn't something that needs to be dealt with immediately or emergency surgery like the last time I had fistulas. And then I get angry thinking why should I have to be so freaking grateful because yet another side effect isn't life threatening or needs immediate hospital care. I'm so sick of this garbage.

Jan

Trubrit said:

Dang it, Jan!

I'm sorry to read this. I was hoping for a summer off for you as well.  

I do hope there is no more surgery for you.  Will it mean pads or Depend for the rest of your very long life?  That is doable. I have to wear a panty liner always, and while its not what I would choose, its doable.  

Well, you know you've got allot of folks here routing for you. 

Tru

Thank you. Things like this keep my feet on the ground, I guess. We'd been seriously discussing buying an acreage with my daughter. She really wants one, we'd like to be in the country again, and if we found the right place we could buy it without gettinga bigger mortgage and she can have a mobile home for compassionate purposes according to the county. My horse needs a pill every day and I'd love to be able to see him out of our windows. Then I get news like this an am reminded that things like that are out of the question.

Jan