Meditations and hllasunations

Sorry, can t spell the second word...... I have never been heavily into meditations but needs to admit I tried it years ago for a while. I know many people practice it on this board. I know my post can come as a very strange one. Years ago when I did it I found it hard because I could get some nice peasful image but then realize it is not reality.several months ago before I would fall asleep but still definitely be awake I would see and hear very clearly it is like watching a movie on TV. It definitely were not dreams. A few days ago I got a massage for my muscle issue. It was a very nice relaxing environment with a relaxing Native American music on background. I was not asleep. I suddenly saw myself being late 60s or so and I am much younger living in a small house that more looks like a shek With a very small yard. It was a tropical climate and it was not far away from the nice beach. I believe it was overseas possibly some Costa Rico. I knew my father was dead but thought he would live very much this view. I never had any retirement plans. I was too young even for a brief period of time I entertained an idea to retire overseas. It was too real for me. I saw a couple who were Americans or Canadies living a couple of houses away. When I got back to my normal mental state .  I realized it won t be a reality because all facts clearly show that I won t make that far in terms of my age. I saw my future life many years from now. when I went to a normal stage it was almost a panic attack that shortly after it produced a clear solid stage of anxiety. I saw it very clear and for me it felt a real future life snap ****. Thoughts? Butt.