Feeling empty and alone

beaumontdave said:

I felt that way, but about my

I felt that way, but about my family, her family. Cindy was great for the 16 months after I was diagnosed, rock solid. Then when she was diagnosed with a brain tumor, we were tight because we both were going through cancer. We got back to a kinda normal, for awhile, but as my recurrances came, then hers, we withdrew a bit. Then after 5 years of battling, came her final decline. I watched the world and our families on Facebook, the trips, the toys, all that we had to give up or couldn't afford. Except for my mom, sister, and niece showing up more than occassionally, the families rarely showed, friends even less, an hour stopby when it did happen. I was so cynical by then I no longer cared much for company, but it hurt that those she'd shown so much love to, were more concerned about not feeling bad then to try and help with some of the simple stuff. Now years past, I count who matters on my fingers, though I chat with and communicate with family and friends, it's a hollow association, a thing I do to feel human. I'd fight hard to reach your man and make him understand what you feel. It may seem unfair that your the one suffering this most, yet you have to reach out, but people are frightened creatures, and fighting for your relationship is still better than letting it slip away, and taking on the bitterness that I feel now about people in general, I trust few, and have little faith in humanity, though I still enjoy many parts of it. Tell him what you need, help him find fun in things you do together, however that may work. If he doesn't respond or change, you may have to re-evaluate your relationship, at some point. As the first responder said, relationships tend to go one way or the other under great stresses, but you shouldn't give up without trying, good luck.............................Dave 

I’m so sorry for all you’ve gone through. A cancer journey definitely shows you your family and friends true colors. I too have realized some relationships just aren’t what I thought they were. I hope your days get better. Thank you for the advice. I’m trying to communicate my thoughts and feelings to my husband in hopes we can find a common ground. It doesn’t help that I’m fighting some depression issues also. The realization that life has become so different post-treatmen is something I’m struggling with. Please take care.