Picking myself back up

Prednisone is part of the chemo regime and that can cause some serious weight gain. Give it some time and watch your diet and that should go away. Hair will be back. And there is also “chemo fog” which affects your moods. Remember, you are only a freak if you believe you are, and I have a hunch you definitely are not.  These are the times that try men’ (and women’s) souls. Hang tough and things will improve, probably rather quickly. All my best to you.

Hi Becca, Congratulations on your remission!

I have a few thoughts for you. First one is the American Cancer Society's Look Good. . .Feel Better program. Look in the blue area of the sidebar at this site to find a program near you. It is completely free. They feature experts in the beauty and cosmetics field who hold classes. The best part is that you recieve a nice zippered travel toiletries bag filled with very nice, department store quality skin care and makeup. 

My next suggestion is to seek out the YMCA's Live Strong program. It is also free. It is a 12 week program to help rebuild confidence and strength after treatment. You also get free full access to the Y for the duration of the program and if you decide to join the YMCA after the program, your sign up fee ($100) is waived. 

Check with your local cancer center about a support group. Chances are that if you find a group, the members will likely be older than you are. That can be a good thing. You will be doted on and loved. And you will be an inspiration to others. We have a younger member in my group and we all love her so much. We would do anything for her.  

Take it easy on yourself. You have just completed major, major treatment for a very serious illness. You are obviously a strong person and you should feel proud of yourself. 

Hugs,

Rocquie

Bex23 said:

Thank you, that helps a lot.

Thank you, that helps a lot. Before all of this I was looking to buy a house and now everything is pushed farther in the future since I couldn't work and had to use the money I had saved for the house. Since I have been diagnosed in August I have had to put house buying on hold, my car got stolen with most of my belongings, found it a week later but it was broken and everything I owned was gone, my 13 yr old lab died and my 1yr old puppy jumped the fence and got hit and killed by a car. I'm happy I'm alive and I know I will slowly get better, but I lost so much in a short amount of time. Heck to sum up the last 5 years, 2 friends died, my uncle died of pancreatic cancer, my dad committed suicide, lost our house, my grandma died, and then cancer, car stolen, loosing my two dogs, and quitting my job. Positives i met my bf and we got a new puppy. I know it'll get better, I'll eventually be able to work full time again, I'll eventually loose the weight, I'll buy a house at some point, my hair will grow back. It's just so hard waiting for all of those things to get better and waiting for me to get stronger and healthier. My bf helps me as much as he can, and I know I'm so loved by so many people. It's just so frustrating to feel so sad all the time and wait around to start feeling better and confident enough to start working and not mess up, especially when I'm so terrified that the cancer will come back or someone else I love will die. I see the positives in my life and I am so grateful for each of them, but it's so hard not to be scared and frustrated.

i understand about your dogs. I lost two in the past 2 years. One was my 16 yr old best friend. The other was 12 and died from bowel obstruction caused by eating a corn cob. Then my Mom, my only aunt, my sister, 3 first cousins and two great human friends also died. Slog on and things get better. You sound very intelligent and strong. This is just a low spot on your road to full recovery.