Managing emotions

Oh, I’m so sorry you and your husband are having to go all through this, especially at the holidays. My best advice is to try to just take one day at a time right now and try not to jump to conclusions. Believe me, all of us here know how hard that is but will be in your best interest. Try to enjoy the true meaning of Christmas and have hope for what is to come for you and your husband. Do you have any other family?  If yes, now is to rally the troops and get all the support and help you can. It’s okay to have trepidation and fear but try not to stay in that place and try not to go down the deep holes. This will be a marathon not a sprint. I’m sure some of the other ladies will be along soon with much more inspirational words than me. Hang in there Mrs & Mr Berry. 

Your double whammy has knocked you down and for good reason. I have found it is best to let those who love you - family, friends, doctors,etc. know what is going on and ask for support. That was hard for me to learn but it actually helps them too as they are now able to feel useful.  This was my second time around so not as scary as first but know this. Learning to wait patiently is a must with cancer. I got my diagnosis on Dec. 15, 2016 so waited until after Christmas to share as I knew I could not tell them anything re treatment until after the holiday when doctors have few appointments. I had my surgery meeting on 6 Jan. and surgery on 25th!  Then has to wait 6 weeks for healing and then start chemo in April, radiation in July,etc.

Patience has never been my talent but I am learning. When I felt blue I called someone and we went to a movie or out to lunch. My son in laws, one an EMT, other a radiologist, gave me my Lovenox shots for the first week as I was too chicken to do them! My grandsons, 12 and 14, came and did yardwork and vacuuming, neighbors brought meals. So, ask for help...it is OK to do that. The year has taught me not to be so dang independent and has brought us all closer. 

Must also say how much this site helped. Long distance buddies!!Hang in there!  Let us hear how things go.

Big hug!  Donna Faye

Everyone on here has been a great inspiration of hope for me.  

I have to share that last night I watched a show called "Dog and Beth-the fight of their life."

If you are not familiary, Dwayne Chapman, (Dog The Bounty Hunter) from tv's A/E network, has his wife, Beth Chapman, who was diagnosed with stage 2 throat cancer back last summer.  The show is very inspriing and very hopeful.

I can say I feel much strength after watching Beth Chapman and what she went through.  All with a happy ending of "cancer free."  I immediately went to instagram and Beth is looking great.  They gave her a 50/50 chance with 13 hours of surgery.

If you can catch it again or read about Beth Chapman, wife of Dog The Bounty Hunter, it sure helped me.  She really went through so much emotion, and highs and lows.

Karen

I'm so sorry you and your hubby are going through this. I totally understand your feelings - I'm a few steps behind you, waiting to start testing procedures in Jan - and it's been driving me nuts. A piece of advice I was given very recently by someone with training (not on this board) is to remind yourself that there is nothing you can do to impact (in my case, the procedure). Deep breathing and meditation was also suggested, as well ask talking to someone and not keeping it bottled inside.

Try to relax and enjoy the season and not think about what lies ahead. Easier said than done, I know. Last night, I went to church even tho I'm not religious. It helped take my mind off things. 

I'm sorry. My dad had prostate cancer at 65. He opted to treat it aggressively and had surgery and radiation 40 times. He has been cancer free for 15 years. 

hope and courage ... check  
despair and unholy fear ... check

(Asking ladies on board ... how many of these emotions have you felt? I believe, if we are honest with ourselves, most of us have felt at least despair and/or fear ... more than once. Probably frequently. I think that's perfectly OK. Venturing into doctor- and medical-land is scary, full of terms we don't understand, and Googling them can make us worry quite a bit. What is important is that you don't give up!)

Waiting is part of the game. I was first diagnosed on 11/28, after several weeks during which I had an ultrasound, two physicals and a CT scan. My PCP managed to pull a few favors and get me examined by the gyno/onco on 11/21, rather than my original appointment on 12/1.

I am not sure about your husband, but I do know with certain cancer cases, including prostrate, some doctors now do neoadjuvant chemo for advanced-stage cases. This is what I'm undergoing now. Three rounds of chemo pre-surgery (hopefully), another CT scan to determine if any problem tumor areas have shrunk (malignant or suspicious, but not necessarily malignant at this point), surgery if the CT scan looks better, three more chemo rounds. Possibly radiation in some cases. Testing and treatment protocols may differ from patient to patient. So if a doctor proposes doing pre-surgery chemo or radiation, or going for a second test, don't be overly surprised. 

I think most of us, when confronted with cancer of any stage or grade, exclaim, "Just get the !@#$ing thing out of me! Stop pussyfooting!" Consulting with a second doctor may help put your mind at ease with your husband if neoadjuvant treatment is warranted, if there seems to be an unwarranted delay, or you have some serious quesitons about treatments. In my case, since I have an advanced-stage UPSC, neoadjuvant treatment is extemely common, and this second doctor at a different facility told me she would have done the same exact thing. That put my mind at ease, and it made me feel like I was doing SOMETHING, rather than staring at the calendar. Do NOT be afraid to ask questions and persist in getting answers. Both of you are literally fighting for your lives!

But in any case, tests and results seem to take forever, and often, even after waiting, these results don't seem particluarly clear until a second test or the surgery itself. I sincerely hope that your next Christmas will be a time of celebration and hope.

Mrs. Berry welcome to our group. I’m sorry that I just saw this having been gone over the holidays. We can all relate to your fears. I had a d+c in August of 2015 and a wait to see oncologist and then scans etc. no surgery until mid October. After surgery internal and external radiation and chemo I have been clear since August 2016. I know waiting is difficult, but I wanted you to see that even with a wait for treatment good results are possible. Oh after I had been cleared my husband took his yearly visit to the urologist. He too was diagnosed with prostate cancer. His treatments have been hormone treatments, external and internal radiation. He gets a hormone shot every 6 months. We won’t know how well he has done until later in the year. He has done well with everything so far, so once again hope is possible. Prayers for you that all goes well!

Something that helped me in the early stages of my diagnosis was my local cancer support group.  Sometimes strangers are easier to talk to than family; at least it will be a group of people who really KNOW what you ar experiencing.  Ask your doctor for a referral or just google.  It also might be worth considering couples counseling.  A crisis like this can bring you and your husband together or cause you to retreat to your separate corners for fear of worrying each other or hurting each other's feelings.  Just two suggestions that helped me. Otherwise, you are already doing what is right for you and I know it can be overwhelming to add one more thing.  Best wishes to you and your husband.