Mass found in bladder

People have told me I'm brave, but I'm not.  You do what you have to do.  It's not what you want to do.  You have the choice of trying to survive or giving up and facing the consequences. It helps to have faith and it's normal to be scared.  I've found that the great majority of chemo nurses are wonderful people and going through chemo is as much of a social visit as it is a medical one.  All you have to do is sit there while they do the work.  Everybody reacts differently to chemo.  Some breeze through it, so don't automatically assume it will be awful for you.  My first time with cancer, the chemo wasn't bad at all.  It was definitely harder the second time around because the bone marrow doesn't react as well as it does the first time.  But given the choice, I'm glad I did it.  I'd rather do that than end up in some kind of terrible pain from the cancer later.  In six months, chemo will be all over with, hopefully, and you'll be the one giving other people advice. 

Once you know you will feel better. The anxiety of being  in the uncertain dark is the pits. Your husband means well but he's not where you are so he can't really get it. Your fears need to be validated. I wish you good luck. 

Mein, I know it is hard, but try to take a breath.  Hugs dear one.

Of course, I wasn't too happy to find out I had cancer again, and to top it all off, I had to have my surgery expedited because if I didn't, it would have obstructed my ascending colon, and I would have had terrible pain and probably could have died without the surgery.  I'd had symptoms for 3 years which felt like a return of my incisional hernia, and some of it was from my intestines growing into the mesh from the repair of that two years earlier.  A mass had been found in 2014, but after watching it with scans for a whole year, my GYN/onc had decided it wasn't cancer.  He wasn't sure what it was but said if it had been cancer, it would've grown, but it didn't until 3 years later, when it grew like crazy.  I guess it was a blessing that I only had days before my surgery so I didn't have time to dwell on it. 

I had chemo starting in the middle of May this year and finished it on Sept. 20.  I am in remission the second time around (the first time was 7 years ago) and my doctor told me I was very lucky to not only be able to have the chemo, as some patients with recurrences can't because it's so widespread, and lucky to go into remission right away.  Unfortunately, he also told me that he thought I'd be doing well if I have a remission of five years before it comes back again.  I read that with ovarian cancer, the remissions last shorter and shorter periods of time, and since my UPSC is a close cousin of ovarian cancer, I guess that applies to me, too.  I'm doing what I can to try to avoid that happening again, as I really don't want to have a third major surgery.  I was in the hospital for 6 days both times.  The first time, I  had my cancer removed and had my gallbladder and appendix out (gallstones were found in my CT scan).  The second time, I had two resections of my intestines (one for the cancer and one for the intestines that were growing into the mesh) plus the rebuilding of my abdominal wall.  My GYN/onc and a general surgeon operated on me together both times.  I'm taking Turmeric/Curcumin now which I didn't do before.  Tomorrow, I have a physical with my family doctor and I'm going to ask him if he will put me on Metformin.  TakingControl58 told me that Metformin will work on the majority of my 6 genomic mutations that were found in my Foundation One testing, so I figure it's worth risking the possible side effects to see if it will keep my cancer from coming back a third time.