have stage 3 breast cancer with bipolar

Hi. I also have some mental illness. Don't cut. You need to have a healthy body for your surgery so you'll heal. I also have stage 3A. Do you have a counselor or therapist? Are you on meds? If not you need to get a therapist immediately. You have to be able to talk about all these crazy feelings that are coming up. Don't let them drive you nuts. You have to get them out. Sucks about your husband. That happens a lot because they don't know what to do & they're having scary feelings about you being sick. Maybe he'll tell you how he's feeling.  If you need a therapist does your city have a community health center? Or get a referral from insurance or local hospital. Does your cancer Dr have a nurse navigator? Most cancer centers do. Talk to her, she'll find you help. That's what she's there for. Don't keep it all in. I started coloring. Get colored pencils & some adult coloring books. Watching funny shows & coloring. Good luck.