Bad news yesterday

so yesterday was my 29 th wedding anniversary and isle t it in the emergency room.  I have been having pain in the right side of my chest and abdomen and finally after 2 days no sleep I went to ER.  Well 8 hrs later a scared to death PA came in room to tell me that my cancer has spread more.  It was probably what was causing all my pain. That I had to follow up today with my oncologist first thing in the morning.  So here it is at 2:37 am,  can not sleep again because I've been up with diaharea.  This disease is getting very stressful to me and my spouse who is always there for me.  I do not know what dr could possibly change me to.  From 800 mg votrient to 60 mg Cabo.  What could be next????? Any ideas out there????

on Saturday I had mentioned my daughter wanting to take me on an all expense paid trip with her and son inlaw and my almost 3 year old across county trip fly to Arizona for a few days , driving up vegas for a few days, Disney land for a few days and then back to AZ for a couple more days and then back to Long Island ny where we live.  I wasn't going to go because it seemed to be way to much, now I'm thinking depending on what doc wants to do with my treatment and if he ok's it, I should go.  I mean I know why my daughter wants to take me.  May sound morbid but I may not get another chance like this because this disease is progressing way to fast .  I will probably not be the best traveling company but I think this time with my family is going to be priceless.  Sorry guys just needed to vent.