Camul about to conqueer El Capitan!!!!

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  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
    edited July 2017 #22
    Apaugh said:

    Carol

    Sissy me can't stand the bone pain I have now, I cannot imagine your pain.  

    Although I knew it, due to other family members, you remind me this beast is truly just that.  It dont matter how proactive you were with your health, if you get it you get it.  It is not your fault.  We are all appriciative of your advice and kindness you take the time to give us. 

    Keeping you and everyone in my prayers for peace and less pain and stress.

    Hugs,

    Annie

     

    I too watched my brother go through it.

    I knew it would be painful and I have a strong pain threshold and the day he passed he told me he hoped none of us (he was the oldest of 12). He and I and one of my sisters helped my mom which was never something any of us regretted. She was amazing.  But when it showed up in my bones it was holy sh"".  I knew it would. E bad, just thought rads 16 times, with each of them being 10-14 days, than again in 6 of the areas.  in addition I did chemo 1x a week for 3 +years.  

    A lot of the pain is from rads and being on. biophosphates too long, but it was new and they didn't know!  So I am not upset with them.  I have made it 6 1/2 years longer than expected now.  The only thing left for me is pain meds, so I am doing the.  Eat I can. But there are no longer good days.  The quality is gone.

     

  • tufi000
    tufi000 Member Posts: 745 Member
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    camul said:

    I too watched my brother go through it.

    I knew it would be painful and I have a strong pain threshold and the day he passed he told me he hoped none of us (he was the oldest of 12). He and I and one of my sisters helped my mom which was never something any of us regretted. She was amazing.  But when it showed up in my bones it was holy sh"".  I knew it would. E bad, just thought rads 16 times, with each of them being 10-14 days, than again in 6 of the areas.  in addition I did chemo 1x a week for 3 +years.  

    A lot of the pain is from rads and being on. biophosphates too long, but it was new and they didn't know!  So I am not upset with them.  I have made it 6 1/2 years longer than expected now.  The only thing left for me is pain meds, so I am doing the.  Eat I can. But there are no longer good days.  The quality is gone.

     

    Well....

    Sensei, I truly believe the "quality" is IN you!  It will never go away.  Tolerating the hole you find yourself in can never take who you are away from you. In your case, that's quite a lot.

    My dad, at the end, dealt with your situation similarly.  I still remember him ringing his tiny little bell when he needed one of us. (couldn't talk anymore)No computers then, he wrote it all down on message pads. even jokes!  He knew who he was right till the very end.  The very last thing he wrote was a wild erotic joke , a real joke not just a flirty thing,to his nurse.

    I am not sure about asking ourselves the big questions. Watching my mom knowing , no matter what, she wouldn't be any better in the morning broke my heart.

    Who knows? Does anyone? They don't teach this stuff anywhere, just offer platitudes that are no help.

    I wish I could help you dear Carol, perhaps tommorrow WILL be a little more tolerable. Carry on, we all love you!

     

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