scared and dont know wht to do!!

Hi Kat, I am so sorry you have to go through all this. I am new here and have not started treatment yet. I can't give you any info about your medical decisions, but I was a single Mom also. I understand completely the predicament you are in. I was treated for another cancer 6 years ago with chemo, surgery, radiation. It wiped me out financially. The nature of the treatments made it impossible for me to work because I was so very sick even prior to treatment. I spent my entire life savings because my insurance only covered 80% of costs and the copays and deductibles did not count in that amount. Now, I am on Medicare... Kat, you need to make it easier on yourself. Can you work part time? Can you take a leave and go on Obamacare and get subsidies? Medicaid? You certainly qualify for SS disability benefits. Is there a social worker at the Cancer Center of America who can guide you through this? I know that as a single working mother, you value your independence and that it is hard to accept help. Been there. Now is the time that you absolutely have to accept all the love and help people offer to give. Sometimes, we even have to ask for help. Now is the time. I know the extra challenges posed by being a single Mom working with cancer. You really, really need to give yourself the best shot at getting well right now and that means you may have to take a leave from work and use whatever safety net is available for you. That is what it is there for! Please find out about all the help available to you now. I am going to pray for you at Mass tonight. My heart goes out to you!  Your fear is understandable and feel free to express it here. It helps to be real and sometimes we can't express feelings to our loved ones because we don't want to worry them. Feel free to express every negative feeling here! 

Hi Kathy,

I understand how you feel. I'm diagnosed with what my doctors think is a new primary. This Mothers day I just felt hopeless, why celebrate? I totally get how you feel when thinking about the future. I feel that I am in a holding pattern and inertia. I sort of feel stuck. The one thing that helps me get out of my moods is doing something I like to do. I personally like to walk my dog and binge on the ID discovery channel. It's midless but it helps me escape. Is there any thing that you enjoy that you can do on your down times? I know that the fatigue may make it difficutlt but do you like to do crafts, or read. Try to do one thing a day  for yourself that makes you happy. It really helps. I agree with HAPB's advice  try to use every safety net at your disposal. Did you go to the Cancer Treatment Center for a second opinion or were they your team for the start? I hope that if you do decide to go in for surgery your recovery will be easy and uneventful. Love surf

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