Depression and Anal Cancer

I was diagnosed with inoperable anal cancer in May 2015.  The latest trial I was on targeting one of the mutations in my tumor kept the tumor stable until this month.  Now I'm starting all over again in search of another trial.  I'm exhausted, depressed and not to mention all the problems I experience on a daily basis from all the surgeries, chemotheraphy, radiation, etc.  It is difficult for me to have bowel movements.  It is uncomfortable to sit or do any of the activities I used to enjoy.  I know a lot of you are in the same boat as I am.  How do you get through the day?  Every morning I wake up and I can bearly get out of bed.  Yes, I am on antidepressants, I have a therapist, a great husband and daughter and son in-law, but I'm at the end of my rope.  

I also should add I am a 15 year breast cancer survivor before I was bit in the **** with anal cancer.  Any advice would be appreciated.  My husband and I are meeting with a pallative care counselor this Friday but I would like to know what people who are actually going through this are doing to stay positive when they are told there is no cure and every day is a struggle.  How do you make the best of the time you have left?  

Thank you.

Angela