Having a bad day

Jeesh, it is just too too scary.  We live trying to be brave and accepting the challenge.  But that nag is always there.  I am now a certified coward and partially certified hypocondriac but consider myself highly functioning.  I wonder if this almost over monitoring of health isn't necessary for us to survive.      

Things others ignore we become quite concerned.  I never categorized pain until this year..  how long, how intense, what was I doing, is it going away, sharp, throbbing etc.  So we id something different, I don't just accept it and monitor I then call and ask doc to review, I want to make sure he knows what is going on so he can advise me if there is an issue and we deal with it sooner rather than after the fact.  

I have made more contact with doctors/nurses in the last year than I have in my life to include pediatician when kids were little.  Nurse assure me I don't call very often but I never called until now.  I didn't have any idea you could email etc. But on the positive side I have avoided some icky situations by giving the doc a heads up.  And the proactive health monitoring I honestly believe will serve you, Editgirl, to prevent or expeditiously respond to any possible issue.  

I just hope that the doc lets you come in early and review.  I do so honestly understand your issues and share them.  Keep the vigil up.  God bless you friend and for what it is worth, I so look to you for your even and steadfast fight.   MAbound is so correct...  Cancer IS sneaky.  

Sending good thoughts, prayers,  and tons of love your way.  To you, too, Eldri.  The emotional part of this ugly beast is so uncontrolable, so unpredictable, unexplainable.  Yup, as Eldri put it, a "new normal."  Just know you're not alone, we're right there with you with a Huge Hug!  Hopefully your doc wil understand your urgency for an answer and see you soon.  

Love, LL

Chris, I am so sorry your week is going badly.  Most of the time those little things that worry us are nothing, but it is good to look into them because this ensures that little problems are caught early before they become big problems.  This beast sure does a number on our emotions.  I know that I can go for quite awhile then I have a meltdown that ends with a good cry.  That seems to clear the air and I can go on.  Rolling in a ball and caring can be good for us once in awhile

Hugs and prayers, Lou Ann

So glad to hear you're feeling better, Chris. That's wonderful that your self from a year ago left a post to give you a lift now when you need it.

I know you don't need me to tell you this, but this might be a good time to think about the things that have helped you stay strong up to now, and put that into practice again.

With everyone posting about how anxious they're feeling, I'm less embarrassed to write that I've been feeling super paranoid about what my doctors are and aren't telling me. I'm running through conversations in my head and picking them apart looking for clues to what they really think about how my treatment is going and what my prognosis is. They may or may not have opinions about this right now (I'm almost halfway through treatment), but I know they can't or won't make any pronouncements at this stage. And in fact when I think about it I realize that they genuinely do seem to mean it when they tell me they think I'm doing well. Which is all just to say that sometimes there's only a loose connection between our perception of what's going on and what is going on in our bodies.

Anyway, I'm glad you've had a nice quiet evening.

Chris, So sorry about your bad week and I'm glad you are feeling better today. I have no wise words to offer up. I wish I did!  I can tell you that my sister said it does get easier to live with over time. (Reminder: she has had thyroid, endometrial and pancreatic cancers.)  And, she gets MRIs every 3 months to monitor what is left of her pancreas.

I have had pressure in the vaginal area a few times. Nothing painful just not normal. But, it went away and was not constant. I'm making an assumption that as long as it or other pains don't stay, it is just healing still. Anyway, I hope you can get into the doctor early so that you can ease your mind! This emotional crap is hard to deal with.

Please take care my friend and let us know if you are able to get in to see the doc early.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

Considering that you said "Ever since a mild bout of constipation a couple of weeks ago, things just haven't felt quite right." it occurs to me that you may want to have your doctor check you for the possibility of pelvic organ prolapse. It's something we're all vulnerable to after hysterectomy and a possible explanation for what your feeling other than recurrance. You could even contact your primary doctor about it instead of waiting for your appointment  for another four weeks. Here's a link about it:

http://www.health.harvard.edu/family-health-guide/what-to-do-about-pelvic-organ-prolapse

Hopes this helps rather than makes you worry more. :-(

I think it is normal that we have bad days. With all that you've gone through, it's not unusual that we now have the mindset that any ache or abnormality could be a precursor or a sign of something negative. If it is something that continues to bother you, then I will take the advice of some of the ladies here to maybe give your doctor a call. We can never be too cautious.

I can only partially understand the difficulty you're going through. Cancer is not fair. Just yesterday, I took my mom to a photography studio where we can take some family photos together. She was already tired and quite wobbly and unable to walk steadily on her own power after a short session. She was always healthy and strong (even two months before!) but after she was diagnosed, her physical strength and ability has depreciated a lot and it makes me sad.

However, I wanted to thank and appreciate all that you have done and contributed on this forum. Your experience, although difficult and unwarranted, was not in vain. You have helped many people, including my mom and I, by sharing the knowledge you've accumulated during your own journey as well as encouraging those who are currently on treatment.

You are greatly appreciated, Chris! I hope you feel better!

Love,
Rebecca

Hi Chris, you don't seem like the type of person who would panic for no reason. If your intuition tells you that something is wrong, you are 100% right to follow up on that feeling. Call that doctor and get in there! Let them figure it out so that you can get back to everything you love. We're all rooting for you! Kim

Glad you got an appointment soon.  I'm finding the emotional part of this journey is just as disruptive as the physical part.  A roller-coaster ride for sure! 

Wishing you good news...~LL