Janae update

Just to give you a little update. Its day 8 of my 5th out of six chemo trearments.  Emotionally I am doing alot better than i was the week before my fith chemo.  That time was really hard. Its not perfect but a lot better.  Im not sure about physically though.  I hope i start feeling better as the days go by leading up to my last chemo.  Yesterday i tried to go to a hockey evaluation for my son and thank goodness my  mom was there because my stomach wasnt feeling very good and i went out to her car.  Eating had been hard.  Im still eating but not as good as i would like to.  I did have my daughter get me a bowl of cereal this morning which was better than the last few mornings in which i had toast.  For about 5 of the days i drank two carnation intant breakfasts to suppliment my diet during the day.  I hope that helped.  Twenty years ago when i had treatments i remember a time when i didnt eat good at all for a while.  I drank those carnation instant breakfasts and it helped so much. I got down to one hundred pounds and told myself at that time I wont get below that.  Those carnation instant breakfasts helped me ganin a pound in a half in a week. Im still hoping to get to a more normal diet soon though. Its been hard to not feel good and get the motivation to eat.  I keep trying to tell myself that i will get through this, but sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel still feels a bit far away and  I still try to focus on the moment instead.