didnt make it through work

Janae, please don't beat yourself up. Today is just one battle in a very long war. You will win some battles and you will lose some. There is no getting around that. Go home, eat nourishing food, stay hydrated, get some rest and then kill it tomorrow. You can do this! You are such a warrior!!

Janae,

I don't know what you do for a job, and maybe this isn't an option, but I found that if I only planned on a half day, I could make it. Mornings are better for me, so I even went in early and left before noon. Maybe you could see about doing this job thing in smaller doses? It's very tiring on a good day for me, but I just feel more mentally prepared for half days for the first weeks after surgery and then for the week after chemo. Kvdyson is right, today is just one battle! My husband says it's a marathon NOT a sprint. Give yourself time to heal - head, heart, and body - it's something only people who have been there can understand, so don't be afraid to let your boss in on the after effects of the surgery - he/she doesn't want you there collapsing for heavens sake!

Deep breaths - one day and even one hour at a time. Seek out people who are good to you and ask for their support. Glad you're on this blog.

YOU WILL GET BETTER!

Billie

You felt bad and you went home to recover.  Everyone has done that and will do that.  Take it at face value.  I bet that happens all the time at your work, someone goes home early cause they feel ill.  Rest and try again.. if you don't feel well come home.   Take care of yourself first.  I am so proud you.  Just please assure you are well enough to continue.  Kisses, hugs and best wishes.

I had my 5th infusion a week before your 4th and I'm still dealing with the aftermath. I tried to make mashed potatoes this weekend and it made me dizzy just moving between the range, sink, and counter to make them. Dizziness hasn't been that big of a problem for me so far, but probably because I don't have kids at home making demands on me and I'm retired so I can take it easy when I'm like this.

This isn't getting any easier with each treatment and maybe you need to plan on giving yourself some more time off from work, if you can, after a treatment. You could work those 2 or 3 days after the infusion before the effects hit, but don't beat yourself up if you need a week off after that to get through till you're feeling better again. You're on the same chemo drugs as I am and odds are that your red blood cell count has been steadily going down and that's going to have a big impact on how quickly you tire out. I was worn out just by going to get lab work done this morning and that's not nearly as physical as what you're doing at work. Have your eye on the prize at the end of treatment and do what you have to to get through it. Under these circumstances you have to put your needs first!

I know it seems real hard right now but it will get better.   I had surgery in December and then started a new job mid January.   It took me until August 1st not to feel exhausted!   I felt down because I felt I should be doing this and that.  But don't fight it.   I just told my husband the same thing.  He just finished radiation last week.  He is feeling real tired now.  I just told him go to bed. You can't fight the tiredness.   It is normal but oh so annoying!

With me I was lucky enough to have a job when I was on chemo that I could work half days.  Also, I knew two days after chemo I would be exhausted so I never planned anything then.   I wasn't on chemo with this surgery so I thought I shouldn't be tired.  Boy was I wrong!

I started taking photos of sunsets and sunrises and rainbows.  Then any birds or animals that I saw.  It really helped me to get out of that funk.  Try to find something that you enjoy that doesn't take up too much energy.   Sure I still get down now and then.  Its normal.  Start baking some stuff.  I started doing puzzles too.

And as much as you probably don't want to be around people, force yourself out for a few hours.  Once you get out of the house, you will feel better.

Sending you hugs,

Kathy

You have to take it easy and take care f yourself.  Being fatigued is part of this monster. But it will get better.

Sending hugs and prayers, Lou Ann

Janaes, please stay home tomorrow if you are still feeling weak. Your body needs time to recover.

I agree with MAbound... fatigue is difficult to deal with and there is no way I could have worked after chemo 3 and beyond. So, please give yourself credit for pushing as hard as you have been doing.

As others have said, you will get through this and be able to put it behind you in a few month.

Take care Janaes.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi

Just listen to your dad...  He not only sounds smart but kind and wonderful.  Now, you have a plan.  

Janaes, It is illegal for them to fire you due to your illness. Please check with your HR department. You may want to consider going on short term disability while you finish up treatments. I'm not sure if you have to file using FMLA or something else. But your HR dept. will know. I'm thinking this will give you the ability to concentrate on getting well without the stress and fear of losing your job.

Love and Hugs,

Cindi