Resentment

Hi there-I need to be honest.

I am seething with resentment towards my wifes daughter. She lost custody of her two kids, we had them for 7 months before my wife was diagnosed with cancer. Then they went to live with other relatives. We don't communicate with her much. The damage her daughter caused, the pain, is life altering for everyone, but in particular her two children. She has demonstrated no ownership, no empathy whatsoever. My wife is terminal, I know it, she knows it.

I work hard to take care of her and be supportive.  Just because my wife has terminal cancer doesn't mean the yard doesn't need care, the shrubs continue to grow, grass needs mowing, the appliances breakdown, and it is falling on myself more to problem solve because my wife is too weak.  

I fantasize of what I want to say to my wifes daughter after she dies. I want to rip her a new one. I want to say that as painful and gut wrenching it is to lose my wife, the only solace is that I never have to hear her name again or see her. I want to call her every name I can think of and then more. One cannot fathom the pain she has caused us. My wife has made it clear she does not want her daughter at her memorial service, and I will do my best to honor her request.

Perhaps its time for therapy. These feelings come and go. Nights are hardest, when my wife is upstairs asleep and I am alone with my thoughts.

Thanks for listening.