Hello All

I haven't been on here since my husband passed away in August of 2014.  I am happy to see so many of the people i used to speak to on here, still on here and doing well.  And i am also sad to see a few that have passed.   The loss of my husband is still very hard for me, i have gone from a wife, mother and caregiver to just being a mom. It is a hard thing to get used to.  I am happy that my husband is no longer suffering, but damn, i miss him so much everyday.  For those of you that believe, i did receive one sign from him - it was about a week after his funeral and i was sitting a the dining room table having my coffee and crying like i did most days back then; as i was sitting there i thought i will clean some of these papers up that have been laying here.  When i picked up this one paper there was a bottle cap under it - immediately i was mad because my son left it there and i couldn't figure out why he couldn't just throw it away.  As i picked it up to throw it out, i noticed there was something written on it, i looked at it closer and it said: "Thanks for 15 great years, Mike".  Why is this significant?  the month before my husband passed away, we had just celebrated our 15 year wedding anniversary and my husbands name is Mike.  I carry this cap around with me all the time, it gives me comfort.  Even though i know it's from a Mikes Hard Lemonade bottle, i find it intriquing that i would find it at that very moment with those words on it.

I wish all of you much luck with your fight; the fight is worth it.  Do what you want to do when you feel up to doing it.  In the 6 years my husband battled this awful disease, we travelled to Aruba, Mount Rushmore and many long weekend trips in a 300 mile range of our home.  I know he passed feeling happy that he had seen these places but sad that there was so much more he wanted to see.  His family and myself will travel to these places for him and spread some of his ashes there, so he will be there.

Good luck to all of you.

Sandi