Pretty sure I have breast cancer..

Lily449
Lily449 Member Posts: 1

I have been complaining for a month now that my bra was getting to small, even when I wore one that used to be to big, and this week I felt pain in my underarm which was already a bit swollen since before. But that was something I had just brushed aside. Now the swelling had increased and I could feel a lump. cancer goes in my family on both mums side and dads side so just to be on the safe side I told my sister, who called me paranoid and drama, or yelled it. I was still feeling unsure thinking it's always good to check it out. The next morning she somehow had a change of heart and told me I should go to the doc so he could tell me it was fat tissue as she said it was, so after class on wednesday I went to a GP, I had a lot of problems getting an appointment since I don't speak the language here(I study abroad) and in the end they felt sorry for me and with the help of google translate I managed to tell them about the lump, she palpated it and directly sent me to a bigger hospital and told me that a gynecologist needed to have a look. I went there and had the same problem with nobody speaking English. But in the end I was refered to a doctor that spoke English and she toke my family history and palpated, and told me she had to do a ultra sound. She told me not to be worried until we actually found something and that she was looking for a kind of shadow. Well she found something and after that everything kind of went into a blurr. I was crying and really really panicking. I'm 21 years old, live here with my sister that was no support at all, and had the doctor tell me I most likely had breast cancer. I was sent to the oncologist where a second sonogram was made and he detected 2 very swollen lymph nodes. He asked me if I had been sick recently which I hadn't. Not since Christmas. And he looked at my hand and my arm and I could see his expression becoming more and more serious. And he said, you have no fever, you have no wounds on you hand, arm or anywhere else but you do have two very swollen lymph nodes. He checked the breast but couldn't find anything and told me he couldn't do more for me and told me around 3 times that this was not normal and that I needed to get it checked up. After that visit I was so happy thinking I don't have cancer that I didn't really think of all that had happened that day, when I came home I noticed that one breast was a bit bigger then the other one, and my breast have always been proportional. I haven't been able to see a difference between them before. My sister told me that it was all in my head and that I was looking to closely. I thought that maybe she's right so I let it be, the next day the shock really hit me of all that had happened and I spent the entire day crying, my sister called me drama and told me I just wanted a reason to be depressed and that I was emabarrising her when I cried in school in the bathroom. I no longer speak to my sister, but yesterday I looked at my breast again and the swelling had increased, and I thought maybe I am just tired cause it was around midnight when I got home, so I decided to wait until morning. I just checked and you can see a clear difference between my breast, well I can atleast see the difference to how it used to be. And it feels weird, it doesn't hurt anymore but just feels weird, I don't know how to explain it, like it's heavy. My arm feels weird as well. 

Right now I'm at home panicking alone, just waiting for Monday so I can get home and get an appointment with a doctor that speaks the same languege as me. Once home I'll go through all the test to see if this really is breast cancer. I'm literally panicking and am so scared that there is a tumor but that they will miss it cause in my age the breast tissue is dense which makes it harder to detect tumors. I really need to talk to somebody who's been through all of this and just talk. Right now only my brother knows and my sister with whom I'm not speaking to. My parents doesn't know and I'm not sure if I should tell them. I only have my blog to express myself through and I really need a person to talk to or chat with.

Comments

  • cati0314
    cati0314 Member Posts: 203
    Panic

    Hi Lily,  Take a deep breath and try not to panic.  It could be something other than bc.  In the event that it is please know that bc treatment has come such a long way that many of us are leading long and healthy lives after treatment.  Thankfully you have found a doctor that speaks your language and it will be easier to communicate your questions and his advice.  I'm sure others will write shortly.  Keep us posted.  We're all ere for you!  Best, Sharon

  • button2
    button2 Member Posts: 421
    Panic doesn't help

    Try to keep calm first of all. Stay focused on getting an appointment as soon as you can. Don't let it go any longer as every day counts in treatment. Also if it turns out to be benign, you will get peace of mind. I really think you should consider telling your parents what is going on. Don't let anyone tell you that you are a "drama queen" as any change in our bodies needs looking into. That's not being dramatic, it's being a responsible adult. I wish you the best of luck and you can always post on this site and get lots of helpful advice. Let us know how it goes....

  • RozHopkins
    RozHopkins Member Posts: 578 Member
    Wait and see what the next

    Wait and see what the next appointment brings.  Not long to go now.

    i want to mention that in the end before prognosis, I had felt uncomfortable for a few years.  My breasts were increasing in size and I couldn't get any bras to fit without making me feel sore and just 'not right'.  I was itchy and had aches underneath one in particular.  One became more dimpled too.  Mamos didn't show anything even though I had them yearly.  It did turn out I had cancer in both.  That doesn't mean you have please understand, just tell them all you are feeling and your worries plus family history.  Tell us what happens.  Good luck.

  • Puffin2014
    Puffin2014 Member Posts: 531 Member
    3D mammograms

    3D mammograms are much better for examining dense tissue breasts, ask your Dr if your facility has a 3D machine, and if not, where is the closest facility that does.

  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member

    3D mammograms

    3D mammograms are much better for examining dense tissue breasts, ask your Dr if your facility has a 3D machine, and if not, where is the closest facility that does.

    Any updates?? I agree with Puffin2014 -

    3D mammograms are highly recommended - if available.  Please update us when time permits.

     

    Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

    Vicki Sam

  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    VickiSam said:

    Any updates?? I agree with Puffin2014 -

    3D mammograms are highly recommended - if available.  Please update us when time permits.

     

    Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

    Vicki Sam

    checking in to see how thngs

    checking in to see how thngs are going?

     

    Denise

  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    came back to check for an

    came back to check for an update

     

    Denise

  • Kats2
    Kats2 Member Posts: 126
    Get a 3-D Mammogram....!

    Hello. I hope by now that you've gotten a mammogram and a diagnosis. I'm surprised that the doctor didn't do more for you in getting down to your problem. If your intuition is telling you that something isn't right, then you must do something about it. Never mind what others say or think. It's your body and your life. Please keep up updated as to what is going on with you. Wishing you well......Kats2

  • GlowMore
    GlowMore Member Posts: 789 Member
    Kats2 said:

    Get a 3-D Mammogram....!

    Hello. I hope by now that you've gotten a mammogram and a diagnosis. I'm surprised that the doctor didn't do more for you in getting down to your problem. If your intuition is telling you that something isn't right, then you must do something about it. Never mind what others say or think. It's your body and your life. Please keep up updated as to what is going on with you. Wishing you well......Kats2

    March 28th

    Looks like Lili hasnt been back since March 28th Ladies................

    I hope she does come back and let us know what has happened....