Going Through Emotional Roller Coaster

Angelgrl
Angelgrl Member Posts: 4
in Emotional Support #1

Hi everyone.  I am new here to CSN and am a cancer survivor.  Was dignosed with bladder cancer of Nov 2014 and went through 3 months of intense chemotherapy, the MVAC regimen.  I finished chemo last month, thank God, and the cancer is now in remission.  No surgery is needed at this time.  My Oncologist is monitoring me right now with CT scans and blood work.  Lately I have been going through a major emotinnal roller coaster, mainly from losing all of my hair from chemo and finding out now that I am allergic to synthetic wigs, I bought one a couple of weeks ago and broke out in a rash all over my face and neck.  Wore a wig liner so my scalp would not be irritated.  I want my hair back so much, not sure if I will be able to afford a human hiar wig, since I live on limited income, I am blind.  I do wear scarves, but they are not the same as real hair.  I know I am being vain and I should be thankful that I am alive, since this cancer I had is very dangerous.  I just do not know what to do, continue wearing scarves or try and find a human hair wig that is not going to cost thousand of dollars.  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.  I am not even sleeping because of this stress.  Infact I have not even goine outside for several days because I am so distressed over this.  My friend from church is concerned about me.  I just do not feel pretty in just a scarf.  It is difficult eneoough trying to put on makeup with very little vision, I am totally blind in one eye and the other eye I only have less than one degree of vision.  I wear sunglasses most of the time when i am out. 

 

Angelgrl

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  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    #2
    sorry to hear but glad chemo is over

    As for a human hair wig I don't know much about them but do know people routinely donate their hair for wigs for cancer patients.

    I would contact the local branch of the American Cancer Society.  I am sure they can get you pointed in the right direction.

  • Angelgrl
    Angelgrl Member Posts: 4
    #3
    Noellesmom said:

    sorry to hear but glad chemo is over

    As for a human hair wig I don't know much about them but do know people routinely donate their hair for wigs for cancer patients.

    I would contact the local branch of the American Cancer Society.  I am sure they can get you pointed in the right direction.

    Thank you

    Thank you Noellesmom, I will contact the American Cancer Society and see if they might have some suggestions.  I did find a couple on Vogue wigs and Wigs.com, even ebay.  My friend from church took me grocery shopping today and I wore my silk scarf, I am glad I ddi too, it was very hot today.

     

    Angelgrl

  • yamster34
    yamster34 Member Posts: 75
    #4
    Angelgrl said:

    Thank you

    Thank you Noellesmom, I will contact the American Cancer Society and see if they might have some suggestions.  I did find a couple on Vogue wigs and Wigs.com, even ebay.  My friend from church took me grocery shopping today and I wore my silk scarf, I am glad I ddi too, it was very hot today.

     

    Angelgrl

    It is normal to be self

    It is normal to be self conscious and feel unattractive as a result of the many drastic changes cancer and treatment cause to our appearance! I did not get treatment, however, I weighed somewhere between 150-160 pounds when I was first diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer and now weigh 115-120 pounds, as the result of getting fluid drained and changing to a vegan diet briefly. I had lost 32 pounds in 32 days. I was at the hospital and they had to bring in 3 different scales because they did not believe I had lost so much weight so quickly. I am thankful my husband calls me his young and beautiful wife, or I would be more likely to be feeling extremely  unattractive at the moment. Thankfully with time, my body will become more healthy, just as your hair will grow back! My mom went through chemo and her hair actually came back more beautiful than ever before! Hopefully yours will too! We will be praying for you through this time of stress in your life! Just know that as cancer survivors, everyone here is strong, courageous, and beautiful from the inside out because of what we have and will endure! This immense beauty is more lovely than anything in our physical appearance could ever be!

  • Kayse
    Kayse Member Posts: 2
    #5
    Emotional support

    There are caps that I have seen for when the hair is thin the ladies make them or can buy them.  Very cute and all colors and styles.  Bless you on this journey.  I know how difficult it can be, as my road is quite bumpy also. Bless you, much strength and love.

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