Now the seemingly endless wait!

Oh Djinnie! I didn't realize how badly you were feeling! You are always so upbeat and full of jokes and funny anecdotes. I am praying alongside you, girl.

I am hoping your scans will reveal some solution to relieve your symptoms.

Big Hugs,

Jojo

Hi Djinnie

So sorry to hear that new. Hope the CT report brings good news. My prayers are with you.

foxhd said:

my theory

DJ, I have a new theory. It states that cancer has the ultimate goal of trying to kill it's host. Stupid disease. But when it is unable to do so, it just commits to making life miserable and uncomfortable. Pain here, weakness there. Some diarrhea followed by constipation. Weight loss, fluid retention. Opiate addiction. Mental decay. So, as mentioned many times, we have to contend with the misery. With no end date. Then along the way, the cancer will expose it's vulnerability. New or improved treatment will eventually destroy the disease. Against all odds we will be victorious. The trick for us is to figure out how to continue not losing our mind. Time goes by and voila! We will endure. People like us have an advantage. It is being able to open a heavy door through committed effort. Then being able to walk into the dark space without hesitation. It is like being an explorer going into uncharted territory. There is no turning back. Only forward progress until we exit the other end. And we do that not knowing what bizarre encounter is ahead of us.  You see, cancer hates happy people. It thrives on misery. So we don't ever feed it. We replace that with a song loop that we can't get out of our head. It is happy, infectious, contagious and unbeatable. Nothing could be worse than not being a formidable foe. We take some bumps and bruises.  No big deal. We spit in cancers face.

WOW, well said Fox!! I admire your attitude, fortitude and advocacy!

Djinnie.. ENUFF!!! I am so sorry for all you are enduring. No wonder you have been on my mind of late.

Sending you a shoulder to lean on. Glad you are able to come here and share what you are going through.

This news just put my little issues into a different persepective.

Thanks for sharing this most vulnerable dilemma.

Hugs, with hope~

Jan

I am so sorry that you feel so terrible.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.  

foxhd said:

my theory

DJ, I have a new theory. It states that cancer has the ultimate goal of trying to kill it's host. Stupid disease. But when it is unable to do so, it just commits to making life miserable and uncomfortable. Pain here, weakness there. Some diarrhea followed by constipation. Weight loss, fluid retention. Opiate addiction. Mental decay. So, as mentioned many times, we have to contend with the misery. With no end date. Then along the way, the cancer will expose it's vulnerability. New or improved treatment will eventually destroy the disease. Against all odds we will be victorious. The trick for us is to figure out how to continue not losing our mind. Time goes by and voila! We will endure. People like us have an advantage. It is being able to open a heavy door through committed effort. Then being able to walk into the dark space without hesitation. It is like being an explorer going into uncharted territory. There is no turning back. Only forward progress until we exit the other end. And we do that not knowing what bizarre encounter is ahead of us.  You see, cancer hates happy people. It thrives on misery. So we don't ever feed it. We replace that with a song loop that we can't get out of our head. It is happy, infectious, contagious and unbeatable. Nothing could be worse than not being a formidable foe. We take some bumps and bruises.  No big deal. We spit in cancers face.

LOVE IT!

Sarah

Dave418 said:

Djinnie, I wish you well and

Djinnie, I wish you well and I hope you'll feel better soon. 

Fox, that was well said, you guys with stage 4 are fighters and you are inspiring for me.

DJ, please hang on, but don't chip your nail polish.  Many of us are cheering and praying.  Your message earlier this year was an inspiration to find the light switch in the black hole.

Love, Donna

Sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. Hopefully this is a minor set back and you will be feeling better soon. Thinking of you and hoping for the best.

firedude

Djinnie - so sorry for all you're going through. But you've hit rocky road before and you've won. Winning is in your nature. Your positive spirit and grit, combined with the prayers and positive thoughts of your many friends here, will see you on the winning side again. Know you're in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong.

Fox - we should have a bulletin board at the front of this Board and place posts like yours. That’s some awesome writing. From biker to philosopher, you’re the best. I’m printing your theory off and taping it to John’s bathroom mirror. I think all of us “in the fight” need a daily dose of this inspiration.  Thank you.

Djinnie said:

A whole bunch of thankyou's

Thanks to all you's lovely people for all the comforting supportive comments. These things are sent to try us I suppose. I am not panicking just a bit peed off, it is hugely frustrating in that these cantankerous little blighters can't be safely removed. I feel sure though that my Dr La Guerre will have come up with a killer plan by Tuesday to bring them into compliance.

In the meantime lovely Nurse Pick comes every morning to pierce my derrière with a heady cocktail. It is certainly helping somewhat to stem the flow so to speak. Sticking to liquid goup is also helping a little, my husband, bless him, creates art work on my plate to make my meals more appetising. Like you Melissa I can't stomach everything blended together. I feel the only thing missing is a high chair, lol!

Strong motivational rallying prose for the troops Foxie, few could have voiced it better. As my historical hero Churchill once said in his war cry " We shall never surrender " I certainly don't intend to.

 

Djinnie x

Djinnie, what about things like mashed potatoes or pureed veggies? Sounds silly but have you considered some of the baby food available since they're fairly easy to swallow. Or does it have to be more liquid? I have full faith in Dr. La Guerre and you coming up with a battle plan!