Hard day

Hi, I'm not an expert, I think you should ask all details from your Doctor but here is my story

When a large mass was found in my right kidney by ultrasound, I started googeling and found out there was a big possibility of cancer so I feared to death. I didn't sleep all night, searching & reading about it. At the morning I could literally hear the sound of my heart beating. I couldn't breathe and couldn't speak normally because of my breathing problem and I was sure it was a sign of lung mets but after going to ER and taking a tranquilizer drug it became normal. Few days later and after the surgery during  first few days I used to cough so again I thought it was lung mets but found out it was a very normal symptom of surgeries. Few days later I had pain in my head, again thought it was brain mets but fortunately it wasn't. Then one of my left hand fingers had a very bad pain and within few days all my hands and feet had very bad pain, this time I thought it was bone mets, thanks god it wasn't.

 I talked to one of my friends who is a physician, here is what he said." There are many forms of psychosomatic sicknesses, these sicknesses are caused by your mental factors such as stress, fear, depression and then you feel them physically."

Wish you a successful surgery and quick recovery

 Forough

APny said:

Then anticipation and mind

Then anticipation and mind games with yourself are terrible. Once you have your surgery you'll focus on recovery and not have much energy for anything else. Unfortunately the fear of recurrance and mets don't disappear magically. Everyone tells me that takes time. I totally get it that every little ache and pain is automatically assumed to be a met. I still do it at almost 8 months past surgery. But it will lessen, I promise you. Do get some anti anxiety meds. They definitely help.

There just isn't anything more stressfull to the psychie than to be relatively healthy one minute and then being told you have cancer. Death completely overwhelms the mind. You can be told all kinds of things to make you accept this or to help you feel better. However, nothing but time passing allows one to face cancer head on. After you find that you are not dead after the first week, then the second, then a month, and so on, do you learn to confront your diagnosis and prognosis. Someone here once stated that in the mean time you still have shopping and laundry and appointments to keep. You have daily living activities that occupy your mind and time. You learn to move forward. Believe me that for those of us that have been here for a few years, we may still have cancer on our mind, (like that dumb song that gets stuck in our head) but we live on. It is a difficult period to live through. You can do it. Many of us have done so. Stay strong.