Scanxiety May 2014: or where is it?

dhs1963
dhs1963 Member Posts: 513
in Kidney Cancer #1

Scans are tomorrow:  CT of the chest and MRI of the abs and pelivis.  For the first time, this is not the center of life right now...I will miss a few hours of work, and probably go back.  I have no reason to suspect anything other than NED.  I expect NED.  Emotionally, for the first time, I am not treating this as a big milestone.  I am planning my life post scans. I wil get the results on the 15th, but might read the scans myself sooner.  If I have time.

For the longest time (well, 15 months), I was afraid to plan beyond the scans, figuring that is my horizon of health.  Now, I am thinking forward months and years. 

I am at peace with myself and the outcome. 

It is funny; in a lot of ways, the kidney cancer has made me emotionally stronger, as it changed the bar on bad news. 

Comments

  • foxhd
    foxhd Member Posts: 3,181 Member
    #2
    I know how you feel

    dhs, I may not ever expect ned, but, it is nice looking forward in our lives isn't it? Go get 'em!

  • dhs1963
    dhs1963 Member Posts: 513
    #3
    Foxm the point is to live!

    What I have learned is not to let things I can not control bother me.  I can not really control what the cancer is or is not doing.  I can only observe it. 

    NED or not NED, it does not really matter, I will be me. 

  • danbren2
    danbren2 Member Posts: 311
    #4
    dhs1963 said:

    Foxm the point is to live!

    What I have learned is not to let things I can not control bother me.  I can not really control what the cancer is or is not doing.  I can only observe it. 

    NED or not NED, it does not really matter, I will be me. 

    Go NED!

    dhs,

         May we all be NED or stable! Wishing and praying only good results for you as we continue to live and make plans for the future!

                                                       Brenda

  • GSRon
    GSRon Member Posts: 1,303 Member
    #5
    danbren2 said:

    Go NED!

    dhs,

         May we all be NED or stable! Wishing and praying only good results for you as we continue to live and make plans for the future!

                                                       Brenda

    Good Luck on the

    Good Luck on the scans...!!!

    Ron

  • cubsfan9
    cubsfan9 Member Posts: 69 Member
    #6
    Go Cubs!

    Good Morning!

    I like your attitude!  We can't control many things in our lives (like cancer!) but we can control how we respond to those things.  I try to be optomistic, too.  Hey, I'm a Cubs fan, so that tells you something, right??!!

    ~Sharon

  • Skagway Jack
    Skagway Jack Member Posts: 224 Member
    #7
    Worry about the things you control!

    It has been my motto for a long time not to sweat the things I have no direct  control of.  This philosophy doesnt always work, but its a good working ideal.  I have my next scan in late May.  I am accepting a new job and planning on major life changes in anticipation that I will continue to be NED.  The odds are "ever in my favor" but as we all know mathematics has little to do with ones mental comfort.

  • icemantoo
    icemantoo Member Posts: 3,361 Member
    #8
    Skagway Jack said:

    Worry about the things you control!

    It has been my motto for a long time not to sweat the things I have no direct  control of.  This philosophy doesnt always work, but its a good working ideal.  I have my next scan in late May.  I am accepting a new job and planning on major life changes in anticipation that I will continue to be NED.  The odds are "ever in my favor" but as we all know mathematics has little to do with ones mental comfort.

    Attitude

    While a positive attitude may not improve our odds, it sure does improve our outlook and recovery.

     

    Icemantoo

  • dhs1963
    dhs1963 Member Posts: 513
    #9
    Just a brief update

    Scans are today, and scanxiety is here....:).  Could not sleep last night.

    I have three hours till the scans, but will not hear the official results until next week when I see my Dr. in Baltimore

    Got a wife and kids in Baltimore, Jack
    I went out for a ride and I never went back
    Like a river that don't know where it's flowing
    I took a wrong turn and I just kept going

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