will there be another tumor in my body!

Goyca,

You are correct, we have all been there and have felt, thought and gone through what you are experiencing.  I was healthy and happy and  very surprised to find out I had cancer. 

It is funny about telling people or not, some get it and understand and want to help, others are scared, confused and wont acknowledge you.

During my first PET/CT scan I had my first anxiety attack; I never had one in my life, but learned to lean on Lorazapam from there forward.

Don’t be too hard on yourself, it just is!  Get a smart team, learn what you need and go after this intruder with everything you got.  In a few short months this will be behind you and you can start moving forward again.

Good luck,

Matt

all these scans are predictably routine.....every person here has had to go through these before treatment ever starts....be glad they are being so thorough.  The CT's of your head a neck will allow them to see precisely what they are dealing with in the cancer that has been diagnosed.  The PET scan is a precautionary scan to make absolutely sure there is nothing else going on that would need to be taken in consideration of further treatment.  The chances (at 24 years old) that there is something else are pretty remote. 

You will get used to the machines....truly....I never had a scan in my life until I was diagnosed with cancer....tho I don't particularily look forward to them, I'm not scared of them any longer.  I learned to take myself out of it.....a daydream freebee, so to speak .  As for not telling anyone...let some people know....really!  You'll find out who your truly good friends are.....some will dive in and want to help...be it rides, or food, things you might want or need.  Others may drift off.....what really might surprise you are the folks who are simple aquaintences, who dive in and help out with open hearts.....people who you never dreamed cared about you.   Cancer has it's amazing side, that's a fact.

p

Goyca, don't shut your friends out if they are real friends they wil rally around you and take some of the anxiety out of yourself. I felt like you it took a while to tell my neighbours and friends but they somehow picked up vibes something was wrong. my friends and neighbours are marvellous they help me in all ways and don't show pity. Just this afternoon my next door neighbour asked if he could cut my hedges and had a chinwag about his family and how nice the weather is not anything about 'poor you" in his tone of voice. same with family I'm still the same mum,sister,and auntie apart from help like lifts to the hospital they keep me laughing, if cancer is mentioned it's matter of fact not pity. The scanners are painless but noisy, the MRI one sounded like my next dor neighbours working in the garden the humming was like a lawn mower, the bumping like the boy next door kicking a football at the fence, there's bright light inside the machine not dark and you can pretend your sunbathing in the garden listening to normal noises. I admit I took a couple of diazepam before going in and was probably spaced out. They don't mind you taking something to help you through it ask you doctor for a few tablets. All the way through your treatment there is medication of some sort to help you, they don't let you suffer. The treatment is soon over, it doesn't seem that way while going through it but once it's over you feel elated that you've been through it..Your so young to get this horrid decease and it's sad your missing out all the things you love but bear with it. You will get better and will do things you like, that's why you mustn't shut yourself away you can still do things with friends while going through treatment.

Goyca, I think what you are experiencing as far as the anxiety, afraid and really not know what to expect, is normal and we've all gone throught it and do each time we have a scan to confirm that we are still "all clear".    It is a shock for all of us when they get the news but at 24 years old it has to be even tougher to hear and move forward.   Like you, i was rarely sick, very minor surgeries (primarily due to sports related injuries) so it was a big shocker.  

The good news is that tomorrow you will know for sure what your personal situation looks like and what you need to plan for and deal with as you move forward.  Your feelings are absolutely normal and to be expected.   I have my next scan in August, 14 months after my last radiation treatment, and i can assure you that i will be nervous and anxious before the scan and up until I get the results.  Every one of us on this site experience the same thing each time and our scanxietly goes up each time we have a scan.

I think your friends would be much more supportive than you give them credit for and it wouldn't be pity but more concern for their friend's (you) well being and what they might be able to do to help out.  It would probably be good for you to confide in a few close friends to get this off your chest and get some local support and encouragement.   My friends and family were so helpful to me as I worked through the treatments and recovery.  I couldn't have done it without them.

I hope that your scans come back clean and that your problem is isolated to the one known spot.  At least you will know for sure and the uncertainty will be over and you can process along the path to get this behind you so you can move forward with your life.   Good luck my friend and you have a lot of people keeping you in their thoughts and prayers.  Stay as positive as you can and know that you can beat this!

Keith

Goyca said:

Keith & John, thank u for ur

Keith & John, thank u for ur advice and support..

 Today was tiring i was worried.. But once I started going inside the machines , for real I closed my eyes and tried to remember what everyone here told me..thank god this day is over and I can say it went as smooth as possible. Thanks for the encouragement..ill keep u updated about the results. Fingers crossed

 

good night everyone, in my city its night now

and prayers today.  Knew you could get through it!  Fingers, toes, elbows, legs, and eyes crossed for you.  I look wierd that way lol.

PJ