UP AND DOWN

A roller coaster ride and I am terrified of heights.  Since my last post I have been up and down emotionally.  Had a cat scan and was told that I am cancer free YEAH!  But in the interim my chemo blasted me.  It was burning me up from the inside out.  I could not walk without pain and/or use my hands.  Bottom of feet and palms of hands were a mass of blisters.  Finally after going through jars and jars of Aquaphor the feet and palms are almost completely covered with new skin.  I also changed colors from the neck down I am a dark brown color.  It is finally peeling and as I walk through the house I leave behind a trail of dry skin. I am getting tired of sweeping the floors.   One good thing though I can now become a criminal since my fingerprints were completely burned off.  Also my eyes are so watery it is difficult to read.  Anybody have a solution to watery eyes I would be grateful if you could post it.  I also lost 17 pounds in two weeks I now have a fighting weight of 105 pounds. When I saw the doctor last week he was amazed by my reaction. He understood why I called to get pain meds I do not like taking pills but I had no choice.  He said he was trying to kill the cancer with chemo not the patient.  My tumor marker wasn’t that great but he said he was not worried about that since the cat scan was all negative.  He also imformed me, once again, that the remission may not last long since the cancer is aggressive.  You know what I can’t worry about that.  I will enpoy every day of remission be it one day or one year.