Needing Prayers, Pockets, & Good Vibes

wolfen said:

Thank You All So Much

You don't know how much it means to me to have each of you "in my corner", especially since this corner is so very lonely now.

DJ, I'm so glad your sister's aneurism was caught in time & repaired successfully. I know they can burst anytime with devastating results. My dad died with an abdominal aneurism way back in '77. He used to joke about feeling hs heart beating in his stomach, but never sought medical help for it. I got your PM with TN, but don't want to intrude until your sister is feeling better. Dang! A thousand times, I've wished we all lived nearer.

Phrannie, I remember having your TN in my wallet when Ron was so sick, but have mispalced it, so will PM you with mine, also.

Nick, I don't think she has ever broached the subject of a clinical trial with her onc. I'm so glad the Rogosertib is having very little side effects & appears to be working. It's so hard to know how these drugs will affect difeerent people.

I know each of you has been there, but I sometimes feel I'm in this deep, dark pit & no matter how hard I try to climb out, the dirt just keeps falling back on me. Don't let "them" kid you when "they" say losing your spouse gets easier with time. I actually feel a little worse than I did a few months ago. It gets to where I just don't want to climb anymore. I have always tried to be a positive person(despite what you read in some of my posts) & have refused meds for depression & anxiety before(for all these years while my family has been ill), but am seriously thinking of talking to my once a year doc. I am exhausted most of the time from lack of sleep. Sometimes the ol' ticker beats so hard, I'm afraid I'll have a heart attack, & no one here to help me. Sounding like a paranoid ol' lady, now. Just need some kind of hope to cling to so I can climb out.

Luv,

Wolfen

 

talk to your Dr. about some anti-depressents.....They don't take the pain away....but I think they do make it a little easier to bear....my mom was ademently against taking them, no way Jose.....but even she did, but just for a while....maybe five months.  Enough time to help boost her out of the deep dark hole.  She never got back to the "who" she was before my dad passed, but she did manage to find a balance for her life, see some light again.  You've got much  more going on with your daughter's illness it's not surprising that the hole is so steep and impossible to climb out.  My heart breaks for you.  It isn't any wonder that all this depression and anxiety is starting to play havoc with your body. 

A pill isn't going to fix anything, but they may give you what you need to get your feet under you.

p

debbiejeanne said:

thank u to those who prayed 4

thank u to those who prayed 4 my sister!  GOD ANSWERED the prayers!!!  pam's surgery went great!  took 2.5 hrs (less time than expected) and she did fine.  the aneurism had leaked some so it was more complicated than planned and its a good thing they did the surgery now.  she's n a lot of pain but they're trying to get it under control.  she will only b n the hosp 2-3 days depending on how well/quick she recovers.  I've been praising and thanking God all day!!  God is GREAT!!!  He really does listen AND answer!  again, thank you for praying!

God bless,

dj

Dj....praising right long with you.  I hope today has found you sister pain free and close to being home.  thanks so much for the update. I was going to message you this evening.  

Hugs,

christie

We wonder why bad things happen to good people and the answer sometimes is just not there. But God knows His children and He knows what we go through every day, suffering, pain, depression, disappointment.  At my lowest point when I was down on the floor in pain and it was as if my very life was being squeezed out of my body and my prayers to God for help was going nowhere. All I could do then is to hope for death to come and get me out of this mess; but it was right then at the lowest point of life I knew I was not alone. It is hard to explain but in the deepest darkness of my life Satan was trying to block my prayers but God heard me and I knew He was there, I was not alone. I don’t know why but He gave me the strength I needed to get up and to keep on fighting. We don’t know why bad things happen to good people but we do know that God watches over those who put their faith and trust in Him. My prayers are for you and your family that no matter what happens here in this life we will all meet in our Masters home one day.

God Bless

Tim Hondo

Thinking of you and your family and passing along good thoughts. Sorry to hear of the news. Stay positive.

prayers your way.  I have gotten a lot of comfort from your post over the lasts 18 months.  I know it is hard and wish there was some way to help.  You are in my prayers.  Ann