Checking in!

Hey guys,

summer is over !  I still go to the lake house on weekends but last week full week there for this summer!  Next year should be different since we are planning to move to Orefield Pa. Sometime in June!  Very excited for Faith and I to start our new chapter with Chris.  Praying disability comes through, i need to help pay the mortgage!  

On that note, my Primary finally recieved request for information and has requested I come in for physical and conversation on Thursday, no worries very little anxiety with this doctor!  However, he will listen to my lungs and during the summernInhave tried to eat few things, ie: Pizza, bread dipped in Pesto(one of my favorites, ice cream...so hopefully they are still clear, been couple months literally since last listen, just want to make sure what i did try isnt sitting around waiting to build up And hospitalize me again!  Mainly using tubes for feedings since leaving hospital in dec. I am down almost 10lbs(not complaining) i think its just that the Ensure Plus is just full of healthy stuff so what i was doing prior to getting sick kinda leveled off to here.  Still need to drop another 10-15 so gotta step up exercises not really anyway to adjust diet! Lol

13 years is coming around the corner, September 28th, my cousin is getting married that day so i will have 2 reasons to celebrate! Missex catching up with all of you!  I head to my therepist on Thursday for second appt. sure alot more crying will happen, but hopefully her and the physc. Can whip me out of my slump depression, its weird i am happier than have been in years and now i decide to feel bad for lost identity with what cancer has taken from me through the years and my job of 22 yrs. and not able to work anymore and this damn peg tube and host of old crap id like to fix.  God sure does have a funny way of making things happen, i will trust Him and walk where He leads me!  Hope your all well!  Soooo many new guys, its sad, all the money raised through so many organizations and yet this beast still thrives, i do certainly believe it is the devil and thats why the disease itself cant be stopped!  It can be beaten with Faith. Positive attidude, great team of doctors and drive in many, but tomorrow it will catch someone else.  This devil has to be stopped, i dont want anymore people walk where we walked or become abi-normal like us, i just want it to go away and not take another soul off this earth!  Not too much to hope or pray for right!

Love you guys, sorry for ramble just missed you all 

Rachel